Go Back and Smile:]]]

these past days were really busy.:[
got so stress:]]
but anyway, i just want to look upon this blog if somebody had left a comment for me:]]
luckily i have comments out there:]]
but anyway. no such luck for me for i dont have any courage. even just alittle.
i feel so coward right now.
i was about to text him.
but my instict keeps on telling me to just wait for his text's:]]]
anway, last sunday is our stake conference:]
after two years of not seeing him.
finally i got to see him again lastsunday:]]
it was terrible and kinda absurd:]]
weee:]]
make me scream as always:]]
while metro manila and other affected places are still suffering from their loss:[
am suffering to:[
im thinking if my friends are ok?
but i got to be fine :]
and i really have to be fine:]]
dont wanna be too emotional again.
not this time:]]
just for this moment i got to be happy:]
its October First today:]]
any significant dates?
nothing except for double two's:]]]
yah.
gunna be 1st and 2nd:]]
yah, you knew it han:]]
wait, i remember again:]]
october 30 is getting near.
i have to start my regimen for the upcoming conference:]
Double B:]] i missed him a lot:]]
i weigh things fine right now and again:]]
goodluck:]]]

am busy doing nothing:[[[[

yeah. i cant hardly think anything right now.i think gonna lost my memory soon:] i really cant remember anything. i cant even hear my own voice:]] something strange is really happening. but anyway, i have to update my blogs for my beloved readers. tsk. just got home from school.
intramurals. really got bored in all ways.. tsk.. my mind is not working that good. :] have nothing to announce right now. things gone bad. since yesterday:] really wanna sleep. but im gaining weight already. again and again. ofcourse. hmm..

here's something with sense:]]]
once we have pursued our own personal legend we can inspire others to achieve theirs. Anyone can achieve their destiny if they just take a chance.

in life there are many obstacles to overcome, some people give up easily, in fear of failure, but I have courage to overcome the hurdles of life, and through my courage I can pursue my destiny. In the novel The Alchemist Santiago needs courage in order to follow his heart, which leads him to fulfilling his personal legend. I feel that I have courage to pursue my destiny because I am not afraid of what awaits me. I am willing to accept new challenges, and will continue to do so in the future. One example that proves I can overcome obstacles in life is that not only do I have to complete my 8th Grade work well, I also have to juggle the school play everyday till 6pm, soccer, dance and piano lessons. I want to do well in all these subjects and even though I have a hard time managing all of them, I have accepted the challenge, and taken a chance, which shows courage. Through this I have improved on managing my time and organization, and I have expanded my horizons, so in the future, I have many options which can help me fulfill my destiny. I may not know what is my destiny, but I am willing to look out into the unknown and accept what awaits me, knowing I have courage to overcome it.

can you feel it? well i feel the same thing too:]]

well, have nothing to boost:]] Anyway I'm in sort of in an identity crisis now. Okay more like style identity crisis. Cos I kinda like loud and bright colours and yet I want to stay with the quiet colours like greys and light browns or offwhite. Idk man, sometimes I like to just load up on accessories, layer clothing but then I like to keep things simple and minimalistic yknow?! Just like that day I wore heels to school, my mind was so perplexed with the idea of turning more girly (cos I really like a pair of sandals with heels) but yet I cannot bear to part with my sneakers. I love my hoodies and I want to get more! Sigh, I'm such a confused teen hahaha. Maybe I'll stick to comfort. Just me, my hoodie and sneakers. Sounds nice :) And prolly when my hair grows longer I'll look more girly? Was reading up a blog on this mother with like 7 kids whom is a photographer too. And there was all those princessy parties for her daughters, which got me thinking about my future kids too. I've always been telling people how I realllllllllly dislike stereotypes of like pink for girls and blue for guys. But I fear for the day that I would enforce my own thinking on my children! CAN YOU IMAGINE MY DAUGHTER REALLY WANTS TO WEAR PINK AND PLAY WITH BARBIEDOLLS BUT I DEPRIVE HER FROM IT?! hahahaha, I can totally imagine myself shoving some lego and car toys to her to play instead. Cos what's going on in my mind would be "BREAK THE STEREOTYPE". Sigh, I fear for my children's future. Oh wells, shouldnt worry too much because my future is in God's hands and I will pray that my future family will be great :) Cos I have faith in my God! :D!! Anyway holidays have been great :)

dont find anyone worth the display:]]

wee. its 10:52 in the morning. have nothing to do again.
just finished eating my early lunch.
nothing wrong is going on:[[[
worth the drama no:[
so hot:[
so bad:]
i hate *****.
thats it.
and i really hate her:[ ***.
nun. nun. nun.
ive been inactive on updating my blogs for almost a week.
ive been very busy;]
pardon:]]
this coming saturday.
its our stake's national family week.
and i cant escape from pressure:]
we'll be hosting the program.
MC's got to make the party outloud.
me and kua dandan were in "tension"
perfect tandem nga ba?
i dont think so:]
well it is.
really it is::]]
really feel im alone right now:]
he should have known.
were done.
foolish:]]]
done believing you 8D
weee.. love it:]
i feel pretty fine whenever im with him:]
intrigue? XD. gunna broadcast it soon:]
very soon:] am not that sure yet.
pardon:[
muapx...
brattinela is here:]
gonan talk much.
gunna laugh much.
gunna love you much and much.
misses matthew much:]
megacosm:[
beautiful nightmareeee:]
very soon. get lost dear:[mmmm...
i cant post yet a blog about other people.
lack of time:]
im busy editing my articles for Blast:]
sorry sweetie]
such that you are an oeger.
really you are.:[
i hate woman like YOU. ***!
know why?
haughty:]]]]
im prettymore:]
nagkataon lang nga naman na una ka nyang nakita.
tsktsktsk.
ok lang. dont have to steal him from you:]]]
sayo na siya:]]]
hindi pa naman ako desperada:D
like YOU ***.

testimonial from kua audz:]

.pareng hana!ü PORTIA! Oi alam ko na kung anong ibig sabihin ng PORTIA! hahah! Dba matagal mo nang pinaresearch sa akin kung what is the meaning of that word. Hindi ko alam kung ginagamit mo pa rin ang word na 'PORTIA' sa ngayon..pero sa pagkakaalam ko you're proud when everybody calls you PORKSIA!..ai..PORTIA!..heheh! Time flies so fast! 7 1/2 months in Villasis..it's just like a chimera..hahah!Ü
I know you're a multi-talented parasite..ai..being pala..heheh! Mathematician, scientist, journalist, boksingera..oppsss..bugbog sarado na ako nit..anong category ka ba, 'heavyweight'! Obvious naman di ba?..heheh! Joke!ü..ano pa ba..?..ahmm, may bago na naman akong nadiscover ngayon, you also do witchcraft! Nku, daig mo pang mga cast ng Harry Potter..what school?..Infant Jesus Montessori School of Witchcraft and Wizardry..heheh!..joke!ü madame ka na palang spell ngayon. Papaharapin mo pa ako sa salamin ha at makikita ko dun ang tunay na mangkukulam! Hahah!!! Well, meron rin akong panlaban..I insist!ü you dont care kung ano na ang nangyayari sa paligid mo, basta 'maganda ako!'. You dont care kung nag.eevolve pa ba ang iba, basta 'maganda ako!'. You dont care if somebody hates you..basta, 'maganda ako!'..hahah! You're just being 'YOU'..H.A.N.N.A.H..! Eerie!ü heheh! You couldn't deny them..Ü
Isang batang pinanganak na may purpose..'we are daughters of our Heavenly Father..as sisters in Zion'. Truly, you are a daughter of our Heavenly Father, marami kang na.inherit na characteristics and attributes from Him. Pero sa tingin ko na.overdose ka lang sa gatas mo when you're still a baby..hahahah!ü kya kakaiba ka! you are fond of writing poems, narratives and stories. You are fond of composing song..(?)..heheh! You are fond of playing musical instruments and of course your FORTE-24/7 magsalita..hai naku, 500 words per minute..kakaiba ka talaga. You like to be different! Different from others, different from the world..unique! Did you still remember what you ha....

---ewan ko lang.. bakit na putol yan.:] galeng yan kay FORMER elder Sobredo.
ambaet ko kase,,haha..
naman,.. salamat:]

9-9-9. have you notice that:]

gosh, i havent sleep yet since last night.
it was MJ's fault. joke:]
anyway, im having a little sleepy eyes:]
i just talked and talked and talke last night.:]
really an adventure.
can you imagine. the door was locked and i cant do nothing but to wait for a good hand to open it again:] wooo.., i keep on laughing:] then, the dog keeps on barking . and i wanted to kill him:] really i do:[
i had miss updating my blog. since i was busy last three days, i wasnt able to tell you what happened:] i cant remember anything, only the things happened to me earlier:]
dame nameng pinagkwentuhan. and a lot more to:]
i tried to remember them all but some just fly away:]
ill gonna miss them much:] ok ok.:]
heart keeps breaking? oh not anymore:]
i pleaded goodbye already:]
XD. anyway, remember MJ L.? shib's cousin?
yeaboi, atlast i had searched him.. oh wrong.. he had searched:]
make me scream..
not that much:]
one moment:]
one Milo:]

wont you ask me what im feeling right now?
ofcourse im fine outside..
i dont know if i am.. really i am:]
bruised.
not that much..
too bad:[...

wait ill post a blog entry too on mj's blog:]

Bye Bye:]

sept. 5, 2005. too tired.:] what would you learn?

dad just got home last night. wee. and i am really happy:]
i cant sleep but unfortunately i dont have time to open you last night.
knew the reason already right?
what is lost inside?
got it..
hmm..
oh i forgot to tell you, i really had a thousand reason to dump him:]
i keep on singing that song.
why is it i cant send any message on globe:[
bad:[
wanna kill people.:]
XD.

after i'd post a blog yesterday.
i went at mcdo ofcourse..
and guess who's there?
XD.
i saw Teng there.
so cool..
so cute:]
perfect:X

i also saw joan..
had a little talk with her:]
chitchats:]

all the promises you made.
they never saw the light of day.
many times you said you'd changed.
i was a fool to wait.:]
if you found me gone. will you look form me.
ofcourse, you wont:[
you had your chance;[
a part of me and you:[
have to loose them.
cheesyXD.

after all said and done. how could we carry on:]
how did you think that i would be?
now im here again.
what would you do.
what would you say.
will your heart be burn?

i have to control myself:]
so sad:[
anyway.
i think this is enough,
so Tack.
ta hand om dej:[

i really love this video. nakakarelate ako sa ibang tao.. auin..

missionaries who have girlfriend .
this is for you.
watch this..
really great..
oh kaya sa mga may gustong balikan..hahaha..
i had just posted this kasi naimpress ako..
ang adeekk..
para maging masaya naman ako..
oh dba..
hmmmm..

Love Me, But Don’t Show Me
These two weeks together have been the sweetest of my life,
My hearts prayer was answered when you agreed to be my wife.
Your love's like a cancer, girl, cuz I got no resistance,
There's only one answer girl: You got to keep your distance!

Love me, but don't show me.
I want our wedding night to be right.
Miss me, but don't kiss me.
If we start to makin' out girl,
You won't be wearin' white.

You make me feel so handsome, like a shining dark stallion,
I love the way you wear your young women's medallion.
You know girl, I love you, but I hope you comprehend,
This body is a Temple - and you don't got no recommend.

Chorus

I will see you Dressed in white without falter.
Our first love's kiss will be over the altar.

After each date with you, I'll fight with all my might,
To treat you like a gentleman, and shake your hand goodnight.
I'll breathe in your perfume; it's fillin' up my lungs,
But don't you even start to try to use the gift of tongues.

Chorus .



thank you..
fun? right?

September 4, 2009.. no exams for today:] blurr.

i just woke up. weeeeh. lack of sleep pot.
anyway, i came up with the conclusion that i have to fight my dramas. got it?
btw, why is it i cant leave a coooommment on friendster, i think the line is not working right now. gosh.. i have to reply..
i wanted to. just wanting to.. i accidentally feel so emo.. oh:[..
somebody had played one of my most memorable song.
im being too emotional again.
out of reach.,weee. i tried to watch it on youtube. and fortunately.
here it is:



really i am.. wanna cry all this day..
so confused ..
my heart bruised..
so far right.
ill never win him back..

why is it i cant get him out of my mind?

hmmm...
i will never had his heart again.
i have to accept the fact that ours is over.

and in time.. he'll be out of my mind:[

promise:[
ill be fine:[

sorry readers if im being too sad on my blog entry.

i just want to express my real feeling right now.:[

so much for that... have to end this entry for a while.

sept 3, 2009... exams:]

i have nothing to do except to post another entry here.
well i guess this isnt right.
oh. wait. gonna have something to do.
ill be back later:]

tHis one is really COOL. as in.. Perfect:]

its september 2 already. late kase ang date dito sa blog ko:]

i woke up exactly 12 mn. just to greet him. and ofcourse i received no reply nor just a thank you message. dont worry, im not expecting him to reply. whatever. for atleast i greet him. oh my. i was a bit naive right now. last night am so happy. aside from the fun i got from our institute class yesternight. i was so "lokaloka" to tell to everybody that i had a new boyfriend. LOLxD.

actually, hindi ako kinilig sa mga reaction nila, natawa ako. kase kala nila tlgang totoo. well, un lang tlga un. :] btw, bate na ulet kame ni superman(hindi naman tlaga kame nag-away. nawalan lang nang communication dahil for sure selos ang girlfriend nyah) haha. like it always does.

ill take the fall for you. weeee. adeeek tlaga ako. ayun. sana maging masaya ang araw ko, katulad kahapon. i hope so. i really hope so:] should i bite my tounge. i think i hate you. am xooooo emo. hahaa... When will be the right time for Me? i dont know. i really dont know. XD. hmmm.. just want to tell you that i am really bad for doing again this hobby. no need to mention. you knew it already. as years go by, im being too uptight. oh my gosh. i must remember that i have to take chances.


dad is going to cagayan now. i want to go too. and i want to go to ilocos norte. im really missing my friends there. and most probably im missing Ezra. in few months he'll be flying to Hawaii. bye bye.:[ so sad. its for his good. i wanted too to go there. kasoparang malabo na dahil sa mga kalokohan na ginagawa ko ngayon. hmmmm..


on the other hand. galet pa din sa aken si Lo dahil sa ginawa ko. hahaiz., mgtatagal na anaman tlaga to. sanay na ko . pero hindi lang ako sanay na ako lang ang may kasalanan kung bakit kame magkaaway. hmm.. di tuloy ako makakilos ng maayos. i hope babatiin nya na ako. di pa naman ako masyadong maloloka. hahaha..


at sa daddy ko naman.. super ok na ulet kame. ako na ulet ang kanyang Bratt. i love him so much. as in much.! have nothing to say already,. ai ai ai.

much care readers.
Tack:}}]

Merry Christmas.XD. Sepetember1st.

wwwwheeee. i woke up at exactly 7 am.
drowsiness is killing me.
oh. anyway., i was just in the mood of posting a new blog entry right now.
we had our family home evening last night. so happy.
elder samonte and elder saet were there.
together with Ian, Brylle, Alex and John Paul.
so happy.
really fun.
party. party.party.
eat. ate. eaten.
woooooohahaha!
i love it.

then now, im here again. just finished approving my friend request.
much care for me:] kiotskete. anyway han, tomorrow is my ex-boyfriend's birthday,. am i going to greet him at exactly 12:oomn like he did on my birthday? im still confused if i will or ill just forget that its his birthday the next day. Congratulate me, idecided not to text him last month til now., so most probably. if im going to text him tomorrow, it will be my first text again sice i refrain from sending him messages. well, goodluck:]

welcome ber Months... i hope ill enjoy this succeeding months. i hope so. ooooooohhh..

high school life oh my high school days.

I started to wish that i could bring back time. I really want those times to be back. The only thing i could do now is to remember it, to reminisce those lifetime memories we had once before.
This is how our Girl Group started to shine. I could still remember, we were 3rd year students then, we created this group. Inspite of not being a fidelinian i am still welcome. haiz. i miss the so much. highschool days with them.

Ganito lang un. nagsimula ang lahat sa potpots nang magdate si edgar at janelle. ang saya namen nun. grabe. lahat kame nagtatawanan, kumakaen ng pansit canton. asaran todo todo. nang biglang mawala ang itlog ni mimay. aun, ang totoo tinago namin ni paula. malay ba nameng kakainin nya pala un. at simula ng hapon na yun naisipan naming gawan ng pngalan ang grupo namin. at un nga ay tinawag naming "BOILEDEGGS". sun na nagsimula ang unang chapter ng buhay namin. nasundan ng sunod-sunod na trippings. hanggang sa lahat ng kalokohan magkakasama kame. aiun. lahat sana pwede pang ibalik. hanggang sa summer na. aiun. sila ay nagCAT. ako syempre hindi. si abby nagstay sa manila. aiun. masaya kahit papanu. sa text nalang dinadaan ang lhat.

Oh school days na ulet. ako nalang ang wala pang section. late na kse ako pumasok. naalala ko nung pinagpipilitan ni jaja at abby na sa sincerity nalang ako. aun,. hindi ako tinanggap. Sa loyalty naman papasok palang ako., tinakwil na ko si sir roland. tapos sa generosity naman, pianalayas ako ni teacher Mila. abah,. kawawa naman tlga ako oh. wla na kong choice kundi ang INTEGRITY, anhirap ng buhay ko dun halos mapipi na ko. hindi ko tuloy magamit ang speaking skills ko, hmp.

By this time. naging pito na kame sa grupo.

eto sila.

Introduce ko muna sila ha.


Nona Nicole Tupong-waahh,,ang bRainY ng gRupo,,talino nIto,,haha,,baet pah,,suPeR!!haha,,lakas tAma,,,haha!!salU!!haha...

ChristinE JOy GombiO-and danCer sa gRupO..haha,,galIng nIto eber!!!kakabilI,,minsan nga lNg nanliliit xa sa sarili nyah,,haha!!jOke,,hahah,,,dOnT tRy tO tEmpT her,,jOkeS!!!hahaat xEmpre,,,

Janelle Espina-waaHH,,yan ang pReenSeesa daw,,,jOke,,,hah,,tOtOO uN..haha..mavaEt yan,,haha!!masayang kasama,,magaling sumayAw QuestiOn marK??haha!!! nO wordS can dEfinE her..

Paula Ann -Meh- valleJo- meh for shOrT,,haha!!ang kamBing ng barkada,,haha,,,mabaet tOh,,di madaling mapikOn..,gRabeh,,suPer ever loviNg,,hahah!!

kathrYn GAbrielle deLA paz-waAahh,,tyhe girl nExt dooR..haha!!CyUT,MABAET,HAHA,,SAKA,,palOng,,jOke,,haha...ahMm,,gRabe,,masayaNg kAtRipan..

LiezL FerrEr- hindi man namen xa kabatch,,,bestfRen nmen tOh,,haha!!ang kOkOnG nayh,,hahauHmm,,mabaet tOhmmhiraman nga ng accEsoriZ eHm,,ahah!!gRaBehj,,astig!!




ayan sila. wala pa ako jan ha.
anyway. sila ang pinakadabest sa lahat.

madame na kameng pinagdaanan. at ngayon kahit magkakahiwalay na kame. iba-iba man ang school namen basta october at summer naalala namen na lahat kame ai "MONTESSORIAN". may mga new friends man sila hindi padin kame nagkakalimutan. naalala namin ang araw-araw naming buhay sa MCDO. mga kung anu anung trip namin. katulad ng mga to:

picture namin to,., maglulunch na sana kame ng maisipan naming magpapicture kasama namin si sir reggie. (adviser ko nung 3rd year ako) ja took the shot kaya wala siya jan. haizt.

senior's party. si paula lang ang hindi umattend sa barkada. nasa baguio kase siya. hmm. syang pero masaya to. dito nakilala ni prinsesa ang kanyang prinsipe. natulog kame kila jaja. nagkwentuhan magdamag at kumaen ng popcorn adeek namen nuh.

wala lang. ako eto at si mimay. trip lang yan. sa canteen, katatapos lang namin kumaen. kwentuhan. tapos un pixur pixur.

foundation day to. picture muna kasama ko mga sincerity,. anyaway, sabe ko nga diba. integrity ako.hehe, may gold pa ang mukha ko jan. nagmamadali kame. pupunta pa kame sa greenwich nyan.

yan. nasa greenwich na kame nyan. kinaen yan lahat ni jaja. joke. haha. ang saya namen dito noon. hmm.. umuwe pa kame kila jaja tapos nasira ung lock. aun.

seniors party din ito. ang saya, sa bahay nila jaja to.

eto naman ang pinaktrip namin pag walang magawa sa uwian. anfg isaw party namin, unang isawan na nabuo kame. kasama namin jan si liezl ang saya tlaga.

pagkatapos ng grasuation practice namin. yan ang trip namin, kung san san nakakarating. aun. picture picture tlaga kung san saan. nagulat nga ko jaan ee. naghanap pa kame ng photograper jan para lang may poise.. hahaha.


eto ang isa sa mga memorable,. sa himpapawid yan. haha.. ang unang pagsakay ko sa ferris wheel,.katabi kame ni jaboi. bday yan ni marie., ang saya. ang ingay. halos mawasak ang buong echague dahil lang saken, haha. dito simulang nabuo ang SHIBUYAS chapter ng Boiledeggs.

eto. praktis din yan. nasa daan kame at trip lang namin na mgshades dbah. ako yan at si abby. eto din ung nagpunta kame nila jaboi sa mcdo tapos andun sila toooooot:] haha

sa may chxilog yan,. trip namin magarcade. ayan. napagod. umupo muna at nagpixur. kambal kame.


Valentines Day yan. sa school yan. papasok na kame sa gate. pixur muna. hahaiz.

fashion models. aun. yan ung preparations namen. syempre. adeeek, madame kameng pinagdaanan dito. pagkatapos nito ung iniwan na kame ni sir eli. RIP.

Christmas Party. para akong buntis oh.. hinarang lang namin si liezl jan.kakaen kase kame ng carbonara.hehehe, sa may building namen yan.

eto. birthday naman ni NONA NICOLE. ako ung tinakpan nila. ansaya nyan. sobra syempre. busog pa.:}haha.



uh dbah. madameng madame., kulang to para ikwento ng buo.
nang biglang naisip namin. gragraduate na pla kame nuh., aun. nalungkot kame syempre. pero kelangan ee.
kaya eto ang mga naiwang ala-ala namin.:


graduation ball sa countryfarm. ankulet namin. masaya pero nakakalungkot dahil pagkatapos neto. hindi na kame high school. bagong chapter na naman.

sa may pool yan. moments namin para magusap usap.
yahoo.. graduate na tlga kame. ang adeek namen.

oh dbah. parang true. well, totoo naman tlga yan. hinihintay nalng namin ung iba at uunta na kame sa countryfarm.
kameng dalawa ng kapatid ko. maimiss ko siya. at namimiss ko na tlga siya nagun.

as we pledge. haha. si teacher imee un oh. ang kulet.walang nagsasalita. ang adeek. nagwalk out pa siya jan nun.


hai. tapos na ang high school life ko pero eto pa.
life after my high school days.
kala nyuh natapos na jan ang kasiyahan , syempre nasundan pa yan ng madameng madame.


eto na:

ang unang sembreak sa college life. nagpunta kame sa alma mater dear namen. sa monte yan, namiss namin umupo sa coverd walk.

christmas celebration namin. hinatid kame ni mak(bf ni liezl) sa bahay nila abby. haha. nasa likod kasi kame at sa harap ung dalawang lovers syempre.hehe.

eto ay bday ni tita(mama ni jaja) eto din ang unang beses na umiyak ako. ang saya namen tas nasira dahil sa text, nagbreak kase kami ni anu... bsta un. haha. adeek namen. kung anu anu ang trip namin uh.
christmas celeb sa bahay nila lieazl kasama namin kambal . haha. adeeek pumasyal lang kame sa kanila.
sa MCDO:] adeek. eto na ang sarsifloaters vhapter ng barkada.
sa bahay nila jaja yan.
SarsiFloaters Cheers:]
yuck kasi ung float. hindi namin tlaga ininom.haha.. ayaw kase namen. b;leeeh. ang saya. ang lakas naming mangtrip sa mcdo,.
yan,. nakikidamay sila saken. sa pag-iyak ko.haha.



hindi lang yan. masusundan pa yan. sa naun., yan nalang muna. oh dbah. ang saya ng buhay ko. miss ko na tlaga sila. nagkahiwalay man kame panandalian lang un. may UST, SAN BEDA, FEU, LASALLETE, pagdating ng tamang panahon lahat kame ai galing sa MONTE!
go monte.!



labxuuuumatsss.
-hannahgracey