October 29, 2010 - Twists and Turns!

We were not able to celebrate Mom and Dad's Silver Anniv. We planned to make it on November 1.

My Day started with tears, but as the sky turns dark, You were there. T'was one of the greatest feeling i've ever felt. :) I was just a bit disappointed with (Airsupply). I dont know what was his reason why he dont talk neither say Hi nor Hello to me. He's just inches away from me. But anyway, I Dont Care. I must not Care at All. We're OVER and DONE! Im Over it. I am really happy that there was this man whom I never expected that he would come and change everything in me. Life has a new plan for me. Yes, I know! I never expect that BJL will soon be leaving me. I dont know his reason. I'm just waiting for the real thing to happen. Let it Flaunt! If that's what he want to do, Its Alright. For now, I am really thankful for (FOLLOWER). He makes me smile, he makes me feel I'm always remembered.

After the Typhoon Juan, Preparation for Papa and Mama's Anniversary.

Home Sweet Home. I was just so excited for tomorrow. Grandma's coming home tomorrow and also, its my Mama and Papa's Silver Wedding Anniversary. 25 years of Marriage, of Love and of Loyalty. I know Families are forever, and the vows they have shared will last until forever. We can live eternally as we apply the gospel in our own lives. :0 Well, I want to be with them. Anyway, im planning to surprise them with my Home-Bake Cake. It is Full of Love for Mama and Papa. Since i was young I never saw Mama and Papa have any arguements. That's how they treasure their relationship for the past 25 years and ofcourse on the years to go. :) Don't worry I'll post pictures after. :) Just last Monday Night, on our Family Home Evening, they shared to us their love story. Their getting to know each other stage, courting stage, and Dad's proposal to Mama. While the typhoon Juan was rarely bugging the outside world of our home, we are gathered together by Papa as we listened to their colorful LOVE STORY. I never heard it, even before. They often share stories from the past. Honestly, it was just last monday night that we are able to know that they will already celebrate their 25th year of LOVE. Rude, but TRUE! I'll share their story on my next entry. I PROMISE!

Follower's Update. :)

I dont know whats happening on me. I am surely inlove. I dont know why things got to be so screwed. Arr. Gooosh! Everybody's telling me na kame nalang daw. Now, Tell me? When will it be? It's still you who would decide. Arr! Im in the Midst of having MIXED EMOTIONS!

Video Uploads. :)

I was singing RUNAWAY. :)



Acoustic of Will You Ever Learn



Torete - Hannah:)



Me and Kuya Dan Singin Rise Above.

The right Words to SAY:)

October 14, 2010
Well, my day didn’t start so good. I hate the fact that they keep on rationalizing with the wrong things that they do. Blrrr! I hate it. :0 I don’t know why tears started to fall, maybe at the thought that I feel so upset. Hmm Last night, I haven’t realize that it’s 11:30 already, I have enjoyed playing Plants Vs. Zombies. I’m lovin’ it anyway. Im currently listening to Call it Karma- Silverstein. I just missed highschool badly. I’ve been nostalgic about the gone days in high school, though I got lots of memories to be remembered. Im running out of words. Let me share to you this magnum opus that I have composed at the middle of emotional agony. Kuya Dan knew this already, he arranged it already with chords and music. 

Note: For the eyes only, please do not copy/edit or any form of stealing without my permission. Thanks!

Pretenses are Over
--Hannah Grace S. Mesde

The whole scene was like something
out of the old movie we’d just seen
The sky was a velvety midnight blue,
dotted with pinpricks of stars

The ocean waves rolled towards us,
moonlight dancing on their swells
I was sure I would never love anyone
as much as I love you at that moment


Refrain:
What did you want to tell me?
Its harder than I expected.
It was no good for me.
Pretenses are over
The long pixietale
story was just a nightmare


Then, I froze, embarrassed. I hadn’t meant to speak
Even I my words had been covered by sigh
I had to laugh at myself, I’d been fuming about you
Being too preoccupied to carry a conversation

I stared at you expectantly, my jaw clenched
Im not obsessed with being the center of attention
But, I have to pretend that I know nothing at all.
I know nothing at all.

(Refrain)

Bridge:
Is there anyway to be unpredictable
and relatively normal at the same time
I don’t want to do that’s actually bad
But it would be nice to be a little less
Do I have to believe or make them believe.
Ours was just a ‘To make believe’ story.

(Refrain)

Woa, this song really SUCKS. :) But i love this. SO classical! :)
If you want to have a copy just get connected on FACEBOOK:)

Journal Entry:)

October 13, 2010
The world seemed to turn upside down. I got loads of problems at school. Naaah, you know it so bad.  But anyway, I’m so excited for the upcoming Party Party Party with Friends, Well, its been months since we have our BONDING. Last Sunday, its General Conference, why is it I always got a dilemma with my seats. He’s always at my back neither on my left or right. Sounds Funny, Yah.  haha .
Woa, I got no internet connection. Blurr! Oh my, to my excitement I forgot to tell you what had happened to me a while back. I don’t know what was his reason in doing those things. Creepy! Arr!  I’m starting to love Pinoy Books again. Cool. XD.

Euphoria Week:)

All I know is that I'm running out of time because of my Drawing Exam, to my disappointment that i got no EXAM today. bluff:|| Arr! Well, i just hate the fact that i left my room and refrain from playing Plants Vs. Zombies just to go to school and take my exams on my Major subject:)
Anyway, i got lots of super-loving experience with Ate Abish Isabella Tamayo. That was really cool and fun:)) The Career Training with the going home missionaries was really good. Full of laughs, fun and blah blah blah. Move On! hoho:) I cant get him OFF:) He's running through my MIND:))
Anyway, here are some pictures during the Workshop. :))

Elder Carl Alombro, Abish Isabella Tamayo (Annaliza Tamayo), Hannah Grace Mesde, Sister Rosales, Elder Phipps, Elder Pandarawan, Elder Dela Pena, Elder Amen. :)

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Taken October 6, 2010
Cauayan Chapel.

That day was really an WOA! Adventure for me and ate Abish. After the Workshop, we go to Sam then stayed at Talavera for the left hours. We ate at Jolibee to feed our big tummies. haha:)) While waiting for the bus, we shared some experiences while we're conducting the workshop. We really laugh out loud with ourselves. All the funny memories blah blah. :)) Then, Dagupan Bus was on our way, we ride there but we realize that we don't feel so comfortable because of it's gross smell so we planned to transfer into another bus. What makes me say Oh My! was when i step down my foot to the stairs and i saw the missionaries, AP's Office Elders and the Mission President at the Shell Station. We dont know how to react, because it's already 8 in the evening and we're supposed to be at home already. Ofcourse, it's not a big deal anyway. Just the thought of we had already bid goodbye to them when we closed the workshop not knowing that we'll be with them even at the bus. haha:)) But that was really COOL:)) We tried to pretend that we haven't seen them but oh my, ofcourse they would see us. When we got to the Bus, the going home missionaries were shock when they saw us. Haha:)) FUN! Then on our way home, Forbidding Silence! hoho:)) When we reach Santiago, Ate and I never had any guts to looked back:) I finally realize how hard to LEAVE. Now, i know it already. :))

Sembreak Month:)

October na.
Sembreak is really fastapproaching!
and im a YES YES!
I wanna see my friends and be with them again.
Remember, in this month, double 2 is really a MESS!
remember him on october 22. :) one of the happiest day of my life ever, but now, i dont think so:)
i just missed him a lot:)
i know he's doing good right now on his mission:)
i want to send him letters, but i dont have much heart to do it:)
Exactly, grabe:)
Im currently listening to Anthem of our dying days:)
Nakakamiss:)
anyway, i went to my former college school yesterday for my sister. You know what happened? i saw my former professors and classmates. i just missed being with them. :)

i just received a news last night, wala na ulet si ex at jg:)
i dont know if i had to react that i am happy or loose my symphaty on her. Both sides:)
grawwll:)

I'm so excited for sembreak:)