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Friday, October 16, 2009

My new Entry for october:]]

Back to Basic: Something Worthwhile and Important
-Hannah Grace Mesde

Today was as strange as they come. I guess I should bactrack. The entire week was crummy. I would like to lookback and reminisce the past. Back from my young women years, it seems I’m too old to remember my past years. And it flows like this.
Five years ago, I was once sitting on a monobloc chair inside a four corner room. Silently watching over the side of the windows. Observing our Sunday School teacher. Trying to exempt myself from her questions. I was really that silent and typical young woman before who always hide on the comfort room everytime the leaders will pull us out of the primary room. I had also started to attend my daily seminary class. And at my first day of siiting beside my co-seminarians I was a bit weird for not talking for an hour until the class ended. The following was really a miracle, that was when I started to talk outloud. I guess my tantrums just got away from me. I have to admit than im too old for memorizing the 13 Articles of Faith, Singing primary songs such as follw the prophet, I belong to church and many more. Until such time that I noticed that im enjoying already my life as a young woman. Although, I am always at the peak of choosing my friends, the right choice to keep my Sabbath day holy rather than to attend school activities, my personal progress than TV and books, and sacrifice my time to hung out with my friends during my seminary class. There is no such word as regret. I value those treasured memories as forever pixietale story. There are times when I feel I want to give up on what I am doing but there would always be the still small voice, the leaders and my parents that would always tell me to choose the right and seek first the kingdom of God. Many years from now, I may have my own family, my own life’s perfect bliss, but somehow all the wisdom I gained back when I was a primary, a young woman would always linger in my mind and heart and I would always remember that really I am a Daughter of God. For 17 years of existence I have noticed that nothing is permanent in this world, and in the other hand, the world is not getting better, but I guess and everybody knows it that its getting worst. But despite of these adversaries I can make things right out of using my free agency wisely. This journey is not yet done. And I still have many roads to take. I know Heavenly Father and jesus Christ will help me. The scriptures taught me a lot, My leaders had guided me, My family had become my inspiration and my weaknesses has been my stepping stone to become more stong and gain more strength. I know with God nothing is impossible. It take a lot more work than words. My young women motto, “Stand for Truth And Righteousness” and the theme “Stand as a witness of God at all time and in all things and in all places” will lead to me to my eternal goals.

i wrote this song when JLM broke my heart:[[

Falling Out Of Love

-Hannah


Here I am Again

Standing by your side

Hoping that you still remember

Though youre not mine

Youre still a part of me and forever ill be yours


Take a break

Take some rest

Because tomorrow

I promise youll be mine again


Im sorry, you never

You never appreciated me

Though the hard times

You leave me alone

I really do not expect that youll do that

But since, I still have the hope

Ill wait for you

Think until you realize

And I know

Someday youll be mine again


If setting you free will ease the pain

If leaving you will make me happy again

I don’t have the reason to love you continuously


Stop dreaming

Pause from imagining

Youre gone

And youll never be mine again.


Note: please do not copy this without my permission:]]

Thursday, October 15, 2009

just to ease boredom.

i was a little bit scared this time. i dont know why.
well, time flies so fast.
i just got back .
and its been a few weeks since my last post:]]
i dont know how to comply with my problems.
i think this will be a month agony again:[
im still thinking of what had happened.
anyway, i just drop by here to update my readers.
woah! im supposed to got back there but i think...
i cant na:]]
haii.
were having a practice later:]]
so i wont be able to tell everything right now.
ill just post it tomorrow:]] ok?
have nothing to say right now:]]
my mind isnt working:]]
and its too idle to post a very long drama:]]