He will lead us back. :)

There are times when anxiety and loneliness fills our hearts and minds. Sometimes, we often feel so alone when we had the choice to become happy. Life is so wonderful. We have our family, friends and special persons in life. Release all the childhood actions and face the future with open arms. Always remember, HE loves us. HE wants us to be happy. He will never leave us. Trials are given to make us stronger. HE is always watching over us. HE wants us to become full-armored sons and daughters. Remember his agony on the Garden of Eden where he have felt all the pain and take on his back all the sins of the world. HE is really the SON of GOD who came down from his Father to fulfill the greatest PLAN here on earth. When adversaries are along our way, let us find strength in HIM. When we feel so distressed with what’s happening in the world, let HIS WORDS be our comforter. At times when the world turns its back on us, always remember, HE WILL NEVER TURN HIS BACK ON US. (-_-)

Journal Entry. Sigh! March 19,2011

Time flies so fast. (-.-) In few weeks, second semester would end. (-.-) I am really having fun staying with my friends and jamming with them. We had a wonderful day cracking out our jokes, stories and new issues. (-.-) I will surely miss them on summer. (0.o) Somehow, I feel a lot better on handling bitter situations like hearing news about them and the heartaches that I had before. I know there’s a better plan ahead. (-.-) Though, I am still longing for him. I know it’s not right. (-.-) April is getting near. I’ll be celebrating my 19^th birthday on the 19^th day of April. (o.o) I just feel so excited. (-.-) I received a letter from Elder Fernandez. (-.-) It was good reading a letter from him. Anyway, I’m almost over him. Though, there are times when I really feel so bad on letting him go. (-.-)Since he’s gone already, I have to face the future and prepare myself on what will come along my way. I am preparing myself on serving a full-time mission for 18 months. That’s my top priority. (>.<) But I’m not closing the doors of Temple Marriage. (-.-) Let’s see! (-.-) I don’t want to jump in conclusion yet.

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Moving-On (-.-)

Suddenly, I began reviewing my life. I have this dreadful feeling that the worst is yet to come if I'll let this feeling reign. He's really gone in my arms. I tried to hold back in sob but tears began to fell down freely. :'( I can't turn back time. It's too late. I should be paying more attention to myself and just move on. (-.-)

As I was evaluating myself for the past days, I realized something that made me feel this way. Sigh. (-.-) I have to admit, It was my fault. I never gave him any chance. I thought I'm almost over him. (T.T) They told me, I must be thankful, but why am I feeling this way. I feel so sorry for myself, for letting him go, for just ignoring him before. When he's around, I am discreet. When he offer something, I always refuse. I can't understand myself. I can never win him back.

If only, If only, If only. Would I feel bitter? I've been trapped into anxiety and agony. I almost thought it would be a fairytale in reality. :( I have endured in silence showing the world I'm fine. Until when? I can't confide to anyone.Telling me not to feel the way I feel isn't a lot of help. Maybe things wouldn't have happened in exactly the same way. (-.-)

For HIM, I am sorry. I know I shouldn't be doing these things already. I can't help myself. This is the only way in suppressing my emotions. :( Soon, I'll feel better. (-.-)