I am a Daughter Of Our Heavenly Father

I came from a big number of family. We were seven. I have two older brother and sister, and four younger ones. I am the third daughter. I grew up in a world where for me it is almost perfect. My perspective changed, my point of views also. There were this times that I am terribly looking for the real me. Since I am the organization of Young Women, I still have 2 sisters on the same org. Most of the time I am being compared to them and actually I am the least option when it comes to beauty or whatsoever. People around us would always prefer them. I maybe different from them in many ways. Im from a far of the world. I dress simple, I frown a little, I don’t even care about my looks. The real thing about me is I am almost satisfied of who I am. There were times that I really pay self-pity to myself and even lose myself in tears and deppression. I don’t even want someone to talk with. I hate myself whenever I am being compared to anybody else especially to my younger siblings. Maybe I am selfish, but I really don’t want to become a second choice or just a consolation. Im blaming myself for being who I am, sometimes I even think, why them? Why not me? Im following the standards of the church, I am even seeking the Lord’s kingdom first, I am trying to be an example to other Young Woman, why them? Why not me? There are also times that I get used to hurt myself and keep on telling myself that I am worthless. My eyes are opened and I have also seen that my parents would always opt them rather than me. I know, i fall short from their expectations, I know Im not perfect, and I don’t even know if im good or better. The most hard part of it is when sometimes people had actually misinterpret or misjudge me, or even when people would tell me, you don’t look like your sisters. I know they are prettier, gorgeous and glamorous. I can do nothing but to pray and lean on Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I know I was formed from the image of God, so I don’t have to worry anything, the Lord loves me, although people see me on my weakest part, The Lord would always remain just and he would always see me as his perfect daughter.