D'you know what's the Worst News all about? It's all about Ate Abish' Former Lover. HAHA. But actually, I shouldn't be using that expression HAHA. This is really a heartbreaking Entry for all who could relate their story with this. :) Just right after Ate Abish stepped down from the Tricycle, the first reaction that she had was a terrifying face. This is our Conversation.
Ate Abish: 'Gonna tell you something! Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ka ba o malulungkot.'
ME: Ano yun ate?
Ate Abish: Mamaya nalang.
ME: Now na ate! Ano yun? Ikakasal ka na?
Ate Abish: HUHU!
ME: Hmmm.. :)
Ate Abish: Engaged na si BARRACK! BRR!
Nagulat ako at hindi ko alam kung ano nga ba dapat ang reaction ko. I know within Ate Abish' heart she's upset and she wanted to cry though she's wearing a smile. I tried to divert the conversation to other stories but I failed to. At the ERC, I hurriedly ran to the Computer and turned it on.
Ate Abish: HUHUHU! Bakit siya?
ME: Ate, member ba?
Ate Abish: Malamang, Ewan ko. Parang Hawaiiana.
ME: Halla, pano mo nalaman? Ano bang nangyari?
AteAbish: nakita ko sa Flicker mga photos.
ME: hhmmm.. San te? Gusto kong makita? (ng makilatis) HAHA!
Ate Abish: Wag na Hannah! Magugulat ka lang!
ME: Bakit?
Ate Abish: Nakakastressed!
ME: Tara na lang MCDO! kain tayo muna. Dun na tayo magEMOTE! nasstress ako!
You know what? i think the weather was also with us. The rain pours hard! Then, at the Mcdonalds we talked about what really had happened and opened our minds and mouths to come up with the realization that EX are all NOTHING! BITTERNESS nga ba ito? Oo nga siguro. Pero naiinis lang talaga ako.
We then realized what was the real reason why Barrack acts that way. I therefore conclude, he's not worth of ATE ABISH!
Ate Abish: Alam mo yung feeling ng... Ganito pala yun. Engaged na siya!
ME: Awch, te hindi ko talaga mafeel kasi di ko pa natry. Isa lang naman ibig sabihin nyan.
Ate Abish: Ano? Move-On!
ME: meron pa. sabi nga Birds with the same feathers are the same BIRDS! HAHAHA!
Dahil kami ay talagang stressed na! KUMAIN nalang ang REMEDY! :)
Napaorder tuloy ulit ako!
ME: Ate, Sundae pa saka Fries.
Ate ABish: Ikaw nalang.
ME: Ayaw mo na te?
Ate Abish: Busog na ako. Order ka na ah.
ME: Hay! Nasstressed talaga ako te dahil sa balita mo.
Ate Abish: Abah! mas stressed ka pa kaysa sa akin.
ME: eh pano naman kasi, nagulat ako. parang last week lang nakakausap ko siya at tumatawag sa phone. tapos ngayon engaed na! Feeling! HAHAHAHA.
Ate Abish: (Natawa nalang, pero sa totoo lang halatang nasasaktan)
pagkatapos ng kwentuhan, bumalik na kami sa ERC:)
Asusual, kwentuhan pa din. :))
Siya padin ang nasa usapan.
Para sa akin, Masama ang loob ko sa mga taong katulad ni Barrack. Napapaisip tuloy ako. Sigurado pag umuwi si E.BJL at sinabing ENGAGED na din siya, ABAh, Bonggang Bonggang PARANOID ako nun!
Bakit ba may mga tao pa kasing nilikha para magpumiling.
Pagkatapos ng pag-eemote, kailangan ko ng magprepare. I'll be working with the missionaries at 2:00. Ate Abish was very reluctant and she even tried to stop me and just be with her. But unfortunately, I left her with Sis. Garma at the ERC.
Just after I got back, she told me. 'HUHUHUHU! PACS!'
Then, I told her, Okay lang yan ate! Go lang! Blooming ka yata!
She then told me, 'Abah kailangan kong maging BLOOMING!
Sa isip isip ko, TAMA LANG NAMAN YUN! kaysa maging Gloomy! :)
To Ate Abish:
Okay lang yan ate. Now, we'll end to the thought that Golds are not meant for Graphites. Remeber, May goal tayo. If they dont Fit, try the other one. Kaya nga may ALPHABET eh. May Plan A- Z!
Cheer Up my PACS! We're on our way BACK to our FATHER ABOVE! :)
Mine is a different story. It isn't just a common story. Not about to End because mine is an unending Legacy. A second to none individual is still reigning. Now and Forever. I never got much out of this life, Never saw myself in someone's eyes until this day. Never had the things I really wanted, Never had the things that people flaunted Until this day with you I know this is the best thing for me, the best thing for me:]
HannahGSM:]
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010
REVELATIONS and BLAST! :)
The past few weeks were really filled with new revelations and emotions spilled. Last week, November 17, 2010; we conducted again CAREER WORKSHOP with the going home missionaries. Nothing major had happened. It was cool but not as cool as before. J Anyway, I really got lots of issues and news on what’s happening on me right now. Remember E.M? I don’t know his thought on doing things like saying ‘Hi Ate’ even when I’m meters away. Also for the last two nights, E.S calls and talks with me for about an hour or two. I don’t know why. Last Monday, we had our Lunch at McDonalds, and guess who’s there? E.M. Ofcourse some ‘Hi’s and Handshakes’. Ate Abish told me that he’s staring at me even when he’s talking with her. He was trying to catch my attention. Ano na ba talaga ang nangyayari sa akin? Paranoid na din ako. Feeling ko pag magriring ang Cellphone ko, si E.S ang tatawag. HAHAHA! Anyway, I and Ate Abish just had the worst news ever a while back. But I’m going to elaborate it on my next entry. L It’s something like BITTERNESS! HATRED! And EVERYTHING! P.S, Still I got no updates with FOLLOWER! Hey, Ask me OUT! HAHAHA!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
SCREWED PAGES!
November 8, 2010
Am I really fine? Hays, well I’m not. I don’t know why. I got lots of Why and How? Scribbled ideas and emotions over my head. I got a little conversation with my ex-boyfriend just a while back. I was just encouraging him to go on a mission. I don’t know why? I’m over him. It was just I want him to be closer to the gospel again. T.T I think I’m having LSS right now. Brrr! Anyway, Im waiting for him to go ONLINE since the morning came. Sad, He’s not on the line still. I just missed him a lot. I’m listening to Mariah Carey’s One Sweet Day. Do I still have regrets of not telling him what I really feel? Everything about us is over. I’ve moved on. When will be that one sweet day? I’d lost along the way. Really, I am. Too Sad but really true. I’m alone here at home bored of playing Plants Vs. Zombies. Two days ago when my bag was snatched. Luckily I have my phone and wallet at my pocket.
My bag’s content –
Journal(The HardCopy of my Life. T.T),
My Binder(where my pictures are clipped,my letters and classcards),
The Notebook-NovelBook(I’m not yet done reading it),
Shades(from
My Favorite Shirt,
3 I.D’s (HighSchool ID, MassCom ID, and my Pub Admin ID),
My cellphone’s charger and just a little number of coins.
I was really disappointed at the thought that I lost my JOURNAL and my ID’s. November 6, 2010 was really a BAD DAY to me. Aside from my bag was snatched I also received a nerve-breaking news from my classmate. I failed on one of my Major Subjects. Well, I’m already expecting it. T.T
I don’t want to elaborate it. HAHA! Lesson learned, when you feel like don’t bringing your favorite stuffs, DON’T! Cause you might regret after. So, I wont bring you anywhere. Okay, I think this is enough! Take Care!
Monday, November 1, 2010
November! Celebrating Halloween at The Memorial Park. :)
Happy Halloween! My eyes are infected with a virus called ‘AGONY’. HAHA! I got a sored EYE! Only one. T.T Welcome Welcome November! I went to Santiago Memorial Park, 2:00 in the afternoon. It’s raining so I do nothing there except for eating and eating. I got a little time bonding with my Tito’s, Tita’s and cousins. My friend Crichelle asked me to joined her on the party late at night. So, I decided to go also. I also invited Ate Abish to go and watched the Nginiiig Party. You know what happened? At the entrance gate was really a horrifying scenario, the rain pours so hard and there were lots of people on the line. So, I and ate abish decided to stay at the near building. So we stayed at Jolibee. We sitted for an hour, and when we are in the counter for our orders we got disappointed when the crew said ‘Goodevening Maam, these are the available orders’. To our shock, Ate said, ‘Hays! Walang Fries? Mcdo nalang’. HAHA! We were really laughing at ourselves. We love McDonalds and yet at the very first we haven’t take much effort to go there. (It’s also because Mcdonalds was a kilometer away from the Coliseum and it’s raining) I was wearing my shades even when it’s raining. Well my eyes are not in a good and pretty condition. T.T We went to McDonalds and ofcourse Mcdonalds had witnessed again our heartaches! Hmmm. HAHA! We went back again to the Coliseum to picked my siblings and be at home before 12mn. Well, they were on the other Jollibee Branch so we went there. The same feeling came again, the feeling of wanting to turn your head 180 degrees. But, I was very reluctant to do it, I don’t want him to see as I go far away from him. T.T When I got home, I got a very relaxing sleep. It’s because I saw him.
Friday, October 29, 2010
October 29, 2010 - Twists and Turns!
We were not able to celebrate Mom and Dad's Silver Anniv. We planned to make it on November 1.
My Day started with tears, but as the sky turns dark, You were there. T'was one of the greatest feeling i've ever felt. :) I was just a bit disappointed with (Airsupply). I dont know what was his reason why he dont talk neither say Hi nor Hello to me. He's just inches away from me. But anyway, I Dont Care. I must not Care at All. We're OVER and DONE! Im Over it. I am really happy that there was this man whom I never expected that he would come and change everything in me. Life has a new plan for me. Yes, I know! I never expect that BJL will soon be leaving me. I dont know his reason. I'm just waiting for the real thing to happen. Let it Flaunt! If that's what he want to do, Its Alright. For now, I am really thankful for (FOLLOWER). He makes me smile, he makes me feel I'm always remembered.
My Day started with tears, but as the sky turns dark, You were there. T'was one of the greatest feeling i've ever felt. :) I was just a bit disappointed with (Airsupply). I dont know what was his reason why he dont talk neither say Hi nor Hello to me. He's just inches away from me. But anyway, I Dont Care. I must not Care at All. We're OVER and DONE! Im Over it. I am really happy that there was this man whom I never expected that he would come and change everything in me. Life has a new plan for me. Yes, I know! I never expect that BJL will soon be leaving me. I dont know his reason. I'm just waiting for the real thing to happen. Let it Flaunt! If that's what he want to do, Its Alright. For now, I am really thankful for (FOLLOWER). He makes me smile, he makes me feel I'm always remembered.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
After the Typhoon Juan, Preparation for Papa and Mama's Anniversary.
Home Sweet Home. I was just so excited for tomorrow. Grandma's coming home tomorrow and also, its my Mama and Papa's Silver Wedding Anniversary. 25 years of Marriage, of Love and of Loyalty. I know Families are forever, and the vows they have shared will last until forever. We can live eternally as we apply the gospel in our own lives. :0 Well, I want to be with them. Anyway, im planning to surprise them with my Home-Bake Cake. It is Full of Love for Mama and Papa. Since i was young I never saw Mama and Papa have any arguements. That's how they treasure their relationship for the past 25 years and ofcourse on the years to go. :) Don't worry I'll post pictures after. :) Just last Monday Night, on our Family Home Evening, they shared to us their love story. Their getting to know each other stage, courting stage, and Dad's proposal to Mama. While the typhoon Juan was rarely bugging the outside world of our home, we are gathered together by Papa as we listened to their colorful LOVE STORY. I never heard it, even before. They often share stories from the past. Honestly, it was just last monday night that we are able to know that they will already celebrate their 25th year of LOVE. Rude, but TRUE! I'll share their story on my next entry. I PROMISE!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Follower's Update. :)
I dont know whats happening on me. I am surely inlove. I dont know why things got to be so screwed. Arr. Gooosh! Everybody's telling me na kame nalang daw. Now, Tell me? When will it be? It's still you who would decide. Arr! Im in the Midst of having MIXED EMOTIONS!
Video Uploads. :)
I was singing RUNAWAY. :)
Acoustic of Will You Ever Learn
Torete - Hannah:)
Me and Kuya Dan Singin Rise Above.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
The right Words to SAY:)
October 14, 2010
Well, my day didn’t start so good. I hate the fact that they keep on rationalizing with the wrong things that they do. Blrrr! I hate it. :0 I don’t know why tears started to fall, maybe at the thought that I feel so upset. Hmm Last night, I haven’t realize that it’s 11:30 already, I have enjoyed playing Plants Vs. Zombies. I’m lovin’ it anyway. Im currently listening to Call it Karma- Silverstein. I just missed highschool badly. I’ve been nostalgic about the gone days in high school, though I got lots of memories to be remembered. Im running out of words. Let me share to you this magnum opus that I have composed at the middle of emotional agony. Kuya Dan knew this already, he arranged it already with chords and music.
Note: For the eyes only, please do not copy/edit or any form of stealing without my permission. Thanks!
Pretenses are Over
--Hannah Grace S. Mesde
The whole scene was like something
out of the old movie we’d just seen
The sky was a velvety midnight blue,
dotted with pinpricks of stars
The ocean waves rolled towards us,
moonlight dancing on their swells
I was sure I would never love anyone
as much as I love you at that moment
Refrain:
What did you want to tell me?
Its harder than I expected.
It was no good for me.
Pretenses are over
The long pixietale
story was just a nightmare
Then, I froze, embarrassed. I hadn’t meant to speak
Even I my words had been covered by sigh
I had to laugh at myself, I’d been fuming about you
Being too preoccupied to carry a conversation
I stared at you expectantly, my jaw clenched
Im not obsessed with being the center of attention
But, I have to pretend that I know nothing at all.
I know nothing at all.
(Refrain)
Bridge:
Is there anyway to be unpredictable
and relatively normal at the same time
I don’t want to do that’s actually bad
But it would be nice to be a little less
Do I have to believe or make them believe.
Ours was just a ‘To make believe’ story.
(Refrain)
Well, my day didn’t start so good. I hate the fact that they keep on rationalizing with the wrong things that they do. Blrrr! I hate it. :0 I don’t know why tears started to fall, maybe at the thought that I feel so upset. Hmm Last night, I haven’t realize that it’s 11:30 already, I have enjoyed playing Plants Vs. Zombies. I’m lovin’ it anyway. Im currently listening to Call it Karma- Silverstein. I just missed highschool badly. I’ve been nostalgic about the gone days in high school, though I got lots of memories to be remembered. Im running out of words. Let me share to you this magnum opus that I have composed at the middle of emotional agony. Kuya Dan knew this already, he arranged it already with chords and music.
Note: For the eyes only, please do not copy/edit or any form of stealing without my permission. Thanks!
Pretenses are Over
--Hannah Grace S. Mesde
The whole scene was like something
out of the old movie we’d just seen
The sky was a velvety midnight blue,
dotted with pinpricks of stars
The ocean waves rolled towards us,
moonlight dancing on their swells
I was sure I would never love anyone
as much as I love you at that moment
Refrain:
What did you want to tell me?
Its harder than I expected.
It was no good for me.
Pretenses are over
The long pixietale
story was just a nightmare
Then, I froze, embarrassed. I hadn’t meant to speak
Even I my words had been covered by sigh
I had to laugh at myself, I’d been fuming about you
Being too preoccupied to carry a conversation
I stared at you expectantly, my jaw clenched
Im not obsessed with being the center of attention
But, I have to pretend that I know nothing at all.
I know nothing at all.
(Refrain)
Bridge:
Is there anyway to be unpredictable
and relatively normal at the same time
I don’t want to do that’s actually bad
But it would be nice to be a little less
Do I have to believe or make them believe.
Ours was just a ‘To make believe’ story.
(Refrain)
Woa, this song really SUCKS. :) But i love this. SO classical! :)
If you want to have a copy just get connected on FACEBOOK:)
Journal Entry:)
October 13, 2010
The world seemed to turn upside down. I got loads of problems at school. Naaah, you know it so bad. But anyway, I’m so excited for the upcoming Party Party Party with Friends, Well, its been months since we have our BONDING. Last Sunday, its General Conference, why is it I always got a dilemma with my seats. He’s always at my back neither on my left or right. Sounds Funny, Yah. haha .
Woa, I got no internet connection. Blurr! Oh my, to my excitement I forgot to tell you what had happened to me a while back. I don’t know what was his reason in doing those things. Creepy! Arr! I’m starting to love Pinoy Books again. Cool. XD.
The world seemed to turn upside down. I got loads of problems at school. Naaah, you know it so bad. But anyway, I’m so excited for the upcoming Party Party Party with Friends, Well, its been months since we have our BONDING. Last Sunday, its General Conference, why is it I always got a dilemma with my seats. He’s always at my back neither on my left or right. Sounds Funny, Yah. haha .
Woa, I got no internet connection. Blurr! Oh my, to my excitement I forgot to tell you what had happened to me a while back. I don’t know what was his reason in doing those things. Creepy! Arr! I’m starting to love Pinoy Books again. Cool. XD.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Euphoria Week:)
All I know is that I'm running out of time because of my Drawing Exam, to my disappointment that i got no EXAM today. bluff:|| Arr! Well, i just hate the fact that i left my room and refrain from playing Plants Vs. Zombies just to go to school and take my exams on my Major subject:)
Anyway, i got lots of super-loving experience with Ate Abish Isabella Tamayo. That was really cool and fun:)) The Career Training with the going home missionaries was really good. Full of laughs, fun and blah blah blah. Move On! hoho:) I cant get him OFF:) He's running through my MIND:))
Anyway, here are some pictures during the Workshop. :))
Elder Carl Alombro, Abish Isabella Tamayo (Annaliza Tamayo), Hannah Grace Mesde, Sister Rosales, Elder Phipps, Elder Pandarawan, Elder Dela Pena, Elder Amen. :)
(Click for Larger Views)
Taken October 6, 2010
Cauayan Chapel.
That day was really an WOA! Adventure for me and ate Abish. After the Workshop, we go to Sam then stayed at Talavera for the left hours. We ate at Jolibee to feed our big tummies. haha:)) While waiting for the bus, we shared some experiences while we're conducting the workshop. We really laugh out loud with ourselves. All the funny memories blah blah. :)) Then, Dagupan Bus was on our way, we ride there but we realize that we don't feel so comfortable because of it's gross smell so we planned to transfer into another bus. What makes me say Oh My! was when i step down my foot to the stairs and i saw the missionaries, AP's Office Elders and the Mission President at the Shell Station. We dont know how to react, because it's already 8 in the evening and we're supposed to be at home already. Ofcourse, it's not a big deal anyway. Just the thought of we had already bid goodbye to them when we closed the workshop not knowing that we'll be with them even at the bus. haha:)) But that was really COOL:)) We tried to pretend that we haven't seen them but oh my, ofcourse they would see us. When we got to the Bus, the going home missionaries were shock when they saw us. Haha:)) FUN! Then on our way home, Forbidding Silence! hoho:)) When we reach Santiago, Ate and I never had any guts to looked back:) I finally realize how hard to LEAVE. Now, i know it already. :))
Anyway, i got lots of super-loving experience with Ate Abish Isabella Tamayo. That was really cool and fun:)) The Career Training with the going home missionaries was really good. Full of laughs, fun and blah blah blah. Move On! hoho:) I cant get him OFF:) He's running through my MIND:))
Anyway, here are some pictures during the Workshop. :))
Elder Carl Alombro, Abish Isabella Tamayo (Annaliza Tamayo), Hannah Grace Mesde, Sister Rosales, Elder Phipps, Elder Pandarawan, Elder Dela Pena, Elder Amen. :)
(Click for Larger Views)
Taken October 6, 2010
Cauayan Chapel.
That day was really an WOA! Adventure for me and ate Abish. After the Workshop, we go to Sam then stayed at Talavera for the left hours. We ate at Jolibee to feed our big tummies. haha:)) While waiting for the bus, we shared some experiences while we're conducting the workshop. We really laugh out loud with ourselves. All the funny memories blah blah. :)) Then, Dagupan Bus was on our way, we ride there but we realize that we don't feel so comfortable because of it's gross smell so we planned to transfer into another bus. What makes me say Oh My! was when i step down my foot to the stairs and i saw the missionaries, AP's Office Elders and the Mission President at the Shell Station. We dont know how to react, because it's already 8 in the evening and we're supposed to be at home already. Ofcourse, it's not a big deal anyway. Just the thought of we had already bid goodbye to them when we closed the workshop not knowing that we'll be with them even at the bus. haha:)) But that was really COOL:)) We tried to pretend that we haven't seen them but oh my, ofcourse they would see us. When we got to the Bus, the going home missionaries were shock when they saw us. Haha:)) FUN! Then on our way home, Forbidding Silence! hoho:)) When we reach Santiago, Ate and I never had any guts to looked back:) I finally realize how hard to LEAVE. Now, i know it already. :))
Friday, October 1, 2010
Sembreak Month:)
October na.
Sembreak is really fastapproaching!
and im a YES YES!
I wanna see my friends and be with them again.
Remember, in this month, double 2 is really a MESS!
remember him on october 22. :) one of the happiest day of my life ever, but now, i dont think so:)
i just missed him a lot:)
i know he's doing good right now on his mission:)
i want to send him letters, but i dont have much heart to do it:)
Exactly, grabe:)
Im currently listening to Anthem of our dying days:)
Nakakamiss:)
anyway, i went to my former college school yesterday for my sister. You know what happened? i saw my former professors and classmates. i just missed being with them. :)
i just received a news last night, wala na ulet si ex at jg:)
i dont know if i had to react that i am happy or loose my symphaty on her. Both sides:)
grawwll:)
I'm so excited for sembreak:)
Sembreak is really fastapproaching!
and im a YES YES!
I wanna see my friends and be with them again.
Remember, in this month, double 2 is really a MESS!
remember him on october 22. :) one of the happiest day of my life ever, but now, i dont think so:)
i just missed him a lot:)
i know he's doing good right now on his mission:)
i want to send him letters, but i dont have much heart to do it:)
Exactly, grabe:)
Im currently listening to Anthem of our dying days:)
Nakakamiss:)
anyway, i went to my former college school yesterday for my sister. You know what happened? i saw my former professors and classmates. i just missed being with them. :)
i just received a news last night, wala na ulet si ex at jg:)
i dont know if i had to react that i am happy or loose my symphaty on her. Both sides:)
grawwll:)
I'm so excited for sembreak:)
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Septembers going to END:)
Oh, i just got a spare time:) Last night, we went to the wake of Ephraim's Lola. While we were on our way, i cant get off my eyes of the place where my bordx died:(( i was really sad. I know that was God's plan for him. Anyway, the other night, he was on my dreams. He looks so nice and the countenance that i've seen was his picturesque when we were on 4th year. I dont know why i feel so paranoid because of this things.
Im actually listening to the song 'I Love You Goodbye', it was a kind of RELIEVED:)) Im okay now. I've moved on already:)
Im actually listening to the song 'I Love You Goodbye', it was a kind of RELIEVED:)) Im okay now. I've moved on already:)
Friday, September 3, 2010
University Intrams:)) SUMA,College Friends:)
Its already September:0 Well And Good. My New hairstyle was really good:0 And im Loving it:0
Look:) What Can You Say?
Just two days Ago, It was a really really almost Boring Intrams:0 Super walang ginagawa:)
Well, the entire week was not that super haggard. but I feel so stressed because of sleepless nights, Im still wondering why he deleted me on his facebook. he never mentioned about it. We dont even talk for weeks, but we dont have feud:( Hays! Things seemed to be unreasonable. I miss my friends much:) Boiledeggs:) Arr! Wishing for Sembreak already:0
Here are some picture of my new LOOK:) new LIFE:)
Ofcourse, my life as a college student would be super boring without friends. Yes, kahit papano may mga nakaksama ako, dahil alam kong hindi pwedeng maging mag-isa ako at laging maghintay nalang ng time na umuwe ang mga barkada ko:0
Here are they, The SUMA:) Wala lang kameng magawa, kaya yan:0 PhotoShoot:0
From Left to Right -- Ruth Alvarez, Diane Uy, Hannah Grace Mesde, Ivory Jen Siyang :)
Our Jumpshot:)
Cool:0 And I thank them for helping me and supporting me:)
Look:) What Can You Say?
Just two days Ago, It was a really really almost Boring Intrams:0 Super walang ginagawa:)Well, the entire week was not that super haggard. but I feel so stressed because of sleepless nights, Im still wondering why he deleted me on his facebook. he never mentioned about it. We dont even talk for weeks, but we dont have feud:( Hays! Things seemed to be unreasonable. I miss my friends much:) Boiledeggs:) Arr! Wishing for Sembreak already:0
Here are some picture of my new LOOK:) new LIFE:)
(Click The Pictures for larger view)
Ofcourse, my life as a college student would be super boring without friends. Yes, kahit papano may mga nakaksama ako, dahil alam kong hindi pwedeng maging mag-isa ako at laging maghintay nalang ng time na umuwe ang mga barkada ko:0
Here are they, The SUMA:) Wala lang kameng magawa, kaya yan:0 PhotoShoot:0
From Left to Right -- Ruth Alvarez, Diane Uy, Hannah Grace Mesde, Ivory Jen Siyang :)
Our Jumpshot:)
Cool:0 And I thank them for helping me and supporting me:)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
A simple story of what i have experienced:)
I dont know why things happened to be so screwed:) haha.Things are so weird. Last Monday night, the other week, i dremt of a missionary (he was not assigned in our ward) he said to me "When i got home, im going to marry you". I dont know him, i dont even know his name, and i cant remember his face. One thing for sure, i havent met him yet. He was like 5'11, figure like a new zealander. I dont know. hahaha:) Last week was one of the crummiest week ever. loads of paperworks, tutorials and preparation for midterm exams. And the socials had just happened last thursday. It was cool, happy, but not that super great night. Haggard because of sleepless nights. :))
Honestly, i do missed all the people who made my highschool life definitely perfect:)
Last August 21, primary educational tour. a simple scene had captured my compassionate care for kids. There was this child (looks like 6-8 years old), he's walking along the streets and he's selling icecream on sticks. My heart aches for that scenario that he's suppose to be at their home, having some rest, or playing with his buds but there he was. I just cant imagine that, that young boy was spending his saturday on selling ice creams just to earn money. Ironically, the world or our government seemed to have and advocates 'Child's Rights', but how about him. As young as his age he knows how to work hard. Guilty rises through my veins that i don't even appreciate what i have now, i spend a lot of money on non-sense things, i dont work hard to get things that i wanted. But this young boy, he almost have all the difficulties which he was not supposed to have at his age. What he supposes to do is to be in school, write on his paper, listen to his teacher, play with his classmates. But there he was, loosing his voice just to have profit on selling, he never count his walk and never told himself "I'm Tired", instead he keep on shouting "icecream" on the streets. Where's his family? Why do he need to do that? There are unanswered questions but my heart cries because of his industriousness and endurance on life. A lesson learned for me, that i have to appreciate even the very little things that i have because not all people have the privilege to have it. I am more fortunate than them so i must be grateful. I was not able to caught him on cam, because the bus was so fast. but his picture carrying a box on his back full of icecream sticks and walking on the side of the street will always be present in my mind.
Honestly, i do missed all the people who made my highschool life definitely perfect:)
Last August 21, primary educational tour. a simple scene had captured my compassionate care for kids. There was this child (looks like 6-8 years old), he's walking along the streets and he's selling icecream on sticks. My heart aches for that scenario that he's suppose to be at their home, having some rest, or playing with his buds but there he was. I just cant imagine that, that young boy was spending his saturday on selling ice creams just to earn money. Ironically, the world or our government seemed to have and advocates 'Child's Rights', but how about him. As young as his age he knows how to work hard. Guilty rises through my veins that i don't even appreciate what i have now, i spend a lot of money on non-sense things, i dont work hard to get things that i wanted. But this young boy, he almost have all the difficulties which he was not supposed to have at his age. What he supposes to do is to be in school, write on his paper, listen to his teacher, play with his classmates. But there he was, loosing his voice just to have profit on selling, he never count his walk and never told himself "I'm Tired", instead he keep on shouting "icecream" on the streets. Where's his family? Why do he need to do that? There are unanswered questions but my heart cries because of his industriousness and endurance on life. A lesson learned for me, that i have to appreciate even the very little things that i have because not all people have the privilege to have it. I am more fortunate than them so i must be grateful. I was not able to caught him on cam, because the bus was so fast. but his picture carrying a box on his back full of icecream sticks and walking on the side of the street will always be present in my mind.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Dont have something to write:)
I've found him already on FACEBOOK:) im so happy:) really! i dont have classes this friday:) TIME to unwind:) haha! magulo padin ang utak ko:))
Eto ang bago kong nalaman na kanta:) kakaiyak. pero anganda talaga:)
Just know
We are
A spec
In time.
So follow your bliss
And destroy the beauty
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
I wanna die like Jim Morrison
A fucking rock star
I wanna die like God on the cover of time.
Just a blink and it's gone
So baby pour some fame in my glass.
So kill the forest
And destroy the beauty.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
(Colors blind)
the eyes
(Sounds deafen)
the ear
(Flavors numb)
the taste
(Thoughts weaken)
the mind
I'll attack someone with a switchblade knife
So that I can see their pain
I choose to be a serial killer
'Cause the victims don't get any fame.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
Just know we are a spec in time:))
We are
A spec
In time.
So follow your bliss
And destroy the beauty
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
I wanna die like Jim Morrison
A fucking rock star
I wanna die like God on the cover of time.
Just a blink and it's gone
So baby pour some fame in my glass.
So kill the forest
And destroy the beauty.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
(Colors blind)
the eyes
(Sounds deafen)
the ear
(Flavors numb)
the taste
(Thoughts weaken)
the mind
I'll attack someone with a switchblade knife
So that I can see their pain
I choose to be a serial killer
'Cause the victims don't get any fame.
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
Just know we are a spec in time:))
Days are fast approaching:)) Headache:)
After a long time of drama:) eto ako ngayon, madrama padin:)
Tiresome and Exhausting Day:) Seemingly, Tortured yata ang utak ko, especially on TRIGO:) For the past few days that i wasnt able to post my entry here, i have lots of memories:) Well, im just wondering why KUYA BLUE called me 'GRACE'. I was really wondering why:) Nobody calls me that way:) yes, i know my name was HANNAH GRACE, but i cant just think that he'll call me GRACE. And he's looking for someone whose name is MARICAR. I dont know anyone whose name is Maricar:)0 Weird:) Really Weird:)) But, For CL:) he passed by my side last tuesday:) Super Bango nya talaga. Naalala ko tuloy si Rens. How Sad. He reminds me of everything about Rens:) Hays, sice Rens birthday had passed already paranoid padin ako. Hoping that i could visit him on his tomb. I dremt of him last Monday night, i was looking for him over mountains. i dont know why. Hays, too sad i cant get him off:0 Well, CL:), he was on my dream also last tuesday night, he seemed to be so closed to me:)) We were talking about DOTA:) hais, just a while back on the IICT, i got shock because he's looking at me, he was adjacent to my window:) I think Im too weird about being so crazy of him. Whatever:)
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there. Super nakakaiyak talaga:)) i know i cant make things back right now:)) Just how i wish i could:0
When you wake up each morning
And you feel like calling
I'll be there for you
When the road seems uncertain
And you can't stop the hurtin'
I'll be there for you
When there's no one beside you
I'll be there to guide you
Catch you each time you fall
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
When the world's unkind
And your dreams, they need more time
I'll be there for you
If the rules they keep breaking
And the future is fading
I'll be there for you
The rainbow will end
In the palm of your hand
Don't ever let it go
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
Who knows where we'll go
What will tomorrow bring
But we have each other, just hold on tight
We can take to the skies and fly...
I'll be there for you...
I'll be there for you...
The rainbow will end
In the palm of your hand
Don't ever let it go
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
I'll be there
Super nalaulungkot ako sa kantang to:) hays.:)) Anyways, i missed posting my entry here:)) i got a busy schedule on doing my paperworks.
Tiresome and Exhausting Day:) Seemingly, Tortured yata ang utak ko, especially on TRIGO:) For the past few days that i wasnt able to post my entry here, i have lots of memories:) Well, im just wondering why KUYA BLUE called me 'GRACE'. I was really wondering why:) Nobody calls me that way:) yes, i know my name was HANNAH GRACE, but i cant just think that he'll call me GRACE. And he's looking for someone whose name is MARICAR. I dont know anyone whose name is Maricar:)0 Weird:) Really Weird:)) But, For CL:) he passed by my side last tuesday:) Super Bango nya talaga. Naalala ko tuloy si Rens. How Sad. He reminds me of everything about Rens:) Hays, sice Rens birthday had passed already paranoid padin ako. Hoping that i could visit him on his tomb. I dremt of him last Monday night, i was looking for him over mountains. i dont know why. Hays, too sad i cant get him off:0 Well, CL:), he was on my dream also last tuesday night, he seemed to be so closed to me:)) We were talking about DOTA:) hais, just a while back on the IICT, i got shock because he's looking at me, he was adjacent to my window:) I think Im too weird about being so crazy of him. Whatever:)
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there. Super nakakaiyak talaga:)) i know i cant make things back right now:)) Just how i wish i could:0
When you wake up each morning
And you feel like calling
I'll be there for you
When the road seems uncertain
And you can't stop the hurtin'
I'll be there for you
When there's no one beside you
I'll be there to guide you
Catch you each time you fall
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
When the world's unkind
And your dreams, they need more time
I'll be there for you
If the rules they keep breaking
And the future is fading
I'll be there for you
The rainbow will end
In the palm of your hand
Don't ever let it go
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
Who knows where we'll go
What will tomorrow bring
But we have each other, just hold on tight
We can take to the skies and fly...
I'll be there for you...
I'll be there for you...
The rainbow will end
In the palm of your hand
Don't ever let it go
When the stars won't shine anymore
I'll be there...
I'll be there
Super nalaulungkot ako sa kantang to:) hays.:)) Anyways, i missed posting my entry here:)) i got a busy schedule on doing my paperworks.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Eto ako ngayon:))
Look at my newly uploaded pictures:))
eto na ako ngayon, Pumayat daw? haha:))
I guess, parang mas Masaya ako dito:)
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tapos na din ang TRIGO AT PHILOS:)) breathe:))
Tapos na ang exam ng PHILOS at TRIGO. nakakatuwa lang na nahirapan talaga ako. haha. ngayon lang to nangyare na nagreview ako pero walang pumasok sa utak ko. haha. the whole week was reall BUSY:)) its been days na din since yung last na post ko na everything was all about RENS:))
ngayon medyo okay na ang pakiramdam ko. I just need him pero sa mga ala-ala nagiging masaya naman ako:))
I was able to read my diary kanina and i got shock na may mga ganong nangyare pala sa buhay ko. puro mga failures at kakornihan sa pag-ibig. Naalala ko tuloy ang bestfriend kong isa pa, si NIKKO. Katulad din ni RENS, madami din kaming mgandang ala-ala at siya talaga ang unang tinawag kong BESTFRIEND sa loob ng MONTE:)) naalala ko lang na isa siya sa mga hindi ko makakalimutan na BESTFRIEND:)) TULAD din NIYA:)) kilala na yan ng buong mundo:))
MAsaya ako dahil kahit papanu nababawasan ang bigat ng kalooban ko.
Namimiss ko ng sobra ang high school. parang dati napakadali lang magtawag ng 'Uy, MCDO tayo. ngayon mahirap na dahil nsa MAnila sila at ang iba naman busy sa pag-aaral. Parang ako lang ata ang hindi nagiging hectic ang schedule. haha:))
Sad News na naman pala. Wala na din si GRINGO GONZALES. He died last monday night. Sad talaga dahil kahit papano may friendship din na nabuo sa amin. But wherever he is, i know he is Happy:)) Ayokong masyadong damdamin dahil ayaw kong bumaha na naman ng luha at maging miserable ang buhay ko tulad nung nawala si Bords:))
May mga magagandang ala-ala naman na naiwan na pwedeng balikan:))
Ancute neto:))
ngayon medyo okay na ang pakiramdam ko. I just need him pero sa mga ala-ala nagiging masaya naman ako:))
I was able to read my diary kanina and i got shock na may mga ganong nangyare pala sa buhay ko. puro mga failures at kakornihan sa pag-ibig. Naalala ko tuloy ang bestfriend kong isa pa, si NIKKO. Katulad din ni RENS, madami din kaming mgandang ala-ala at siya talaga ang unang tinawag kong BESTFRIEND sa loob ng MONTE:)) naalala ko lang na isa siya sa mga hindi ko makakalimutan na BESTFRIEND:)) TULAD din NIYA:)) kilala na yan ng buong mundo:))
MAsaya ako dahil kahit papanu nababawasan ang bigat ng kalooban ko.
Namimiss ko ng sobra ang high school. parang dati napakadali lang magtawag ng 'Uy, MCDO tayo. ngayon mahirap na dahil nsa MAnila sila at ang iba naman busy sa pag-aaral. Parang ako lang ata ang hindi nagiging hectic ang schedule. haha:))
Sad News na naman pala. Wala na din si GRINGO GONZALES. He died last monday night. Sad talaga dahil kahit papano may friendship din na nabuo sa amin. But wherever he is, i know he is Happy:)) Ayokong masyadong damdamin dahil ayaw kong bumaha na naman ng luha at maging miserable ang buhay ko tulad nung nawala si Bords:))
May mga magagandang ala-ala naman na naiwan na pwedeng balikan:))
Ancute neto:))
Friday, July 9, 2010
Para sa isang kaibigan na NAWALA:(
Its been weeks almost since my last entry. hai:)) I dont know what i really feel:)) Mixed emotions ba? haha:)) I am currently listening to the song WERE SO FARAWAY:)) Freak-Out ba:)) Naalala ko talaga siya. Siya lang naman yung taong alam kong malaki ang epekto sa BUHAY ko:)) PArang feeling ko talaga icant live without him, though hindi naman gnun kacolorful yung naging buhay naming dalawa. nalulungkot ako dahil hindi ko alam kung saan ko ilulugar ang sarili ko. I mean, its been years na diun since tinawag namin ang isa't- isa na BORDX:p yan ang bagay na talagang kinalulungkot. Hindi ko alam kung He worth everything of this and so with me. Dapat din ba na ganito ako mag-react. hahaii:(( Umpisa palang ng kanta hindi ko na mapigilang malungkot at umiyak. the night really had swept us away, naicoconnect ko lahat sa kantang ito. RENS! Miss na Miss na kita. madaming bagay ang hindi ko makalimutan sayo. High School Years was the Greatest dahil na din naging parte ka nun:(( Nung una paman kitang makita sa corridor ng 3rd Year may iba na talaga:( I dont even think so. Di ko man inakala na kahit papanu magiging close tayo:(( Pag ginagawan kita ng quiz, ng seatwork at lalo na sa pagsulat ng Sulatin at Formal Theme. Yung mga seatwork kay Teacher Mila na parehas tayo ng Binder, Actually iisa yung Binder natin dahil hindi ka nagdadala ng notebook mo. Yung Analytic na halos dumugo ang ilong ko na sumagot para lang masabing may seatwork tayo kay Sir Roland. Madami pang bagay na talaga hindi ko makakalimutan dahil sadyang nakatatak na lahat yun sa puso at utak ko. Sa dami ng kwento mo tungkol sa mga problema mo, sa mga naging Girlfriend mo at Mga Girlfriend mo:(( nakakamiss na wala ng Bordx na magGuGudMorning at MagGudnight kahit madaling Araw na. Wala na ding magpipilit sa kin na gumawa pa ng madaming kanta para sa banda. Ang OA man para sa iba na ganito ako magreact, kaya ko pading panindigan. Hindi lang naman dahil Bordx ang turing ko sayo kundi dahil talagang parte ka na ng buhay ko. Sobrang nalulungkot ako dahil alam kong tapos na ang lahat at alam kong wala ng RENS pa na pwede kong tawagin na BORDX. nakakahiya mang isipin pero habang tinatype ko ito, talagang ang luha ko ay hindi ko mapigilan. hindi ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko. naiinggit ako sa mga taong nakasama mo at nagawa nila lahat para sayo. Nangungulila silang lahata sa pgkawala mo. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na nasan ka man, hindi man nawakasan ng maayos ang pagsasamahan natin dahil sa tampuhan na hindi naayos, alam kong kahit papanu may mga bagay padin na dapat kong maalala at pasalamatan ka na binigyan mo din ng ibang idea ang buhay ko.
Eto Yung kanta ko:((
Remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
Wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
Did you know, what you were doing, did you know.
Did you know how you would move me well,
I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away.
and the stars they seemed,
to paint the most elaborate scene today.
How could we know? that song, this show,
we'd learn so much about ourselves.
From Toledo, to Tokyo,
the words were scribed on every page,
and now there’s books up on our shelves.
Did you know how you would move us, did you know?
When the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow.
and the moment's magic swept us away.
and the young mans dream was almost seen so plain.
When was the night
that showed us the sign?
Revealed in the sky, to leave all behind.
But where to begin? throwing caution to the wind,
We reached for the stars, everything was now ours.
Did you know how you would move me, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so.
but the moment's magic swept us away.
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
It’s so close, but we’re so far away.
I MISS YOU MUCH:((
Eto Yung kanta ko:((
Remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
Wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
Did you know, what you were doing, did you know.
Did you know how you would move me well,
I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away.
and the stars they seemed,
to paint the most elaborate scene today.
How could we know? that song, this show,
we'd learn so much about ourselves.
From Toledo, to Tokyo,
the words were scribed on every page,
and now there’s books up on our shelves.
Did you know how you would move us, did you know?
When the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow.
and the moment's magic swept us away.
and the young mans dream was almost seen so plain.
When was the night
that showed us the sign?
Revealed in the sky, to leave all behind.
But where to begin? throwing caution to the wind,
We reached for the stars, everything was now ours.
Did you know how you would move me, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so.
but the moment's magic swept us away.
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
It’s so close, but we’re so far away.
I MISS YOU MUCH:((
Friday, July 2, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
School Escapades:p
I really had a great day today:p Lots of surprises had welcomed me into a new world of fantasy:p Since yesterday i was really happy although i got a little depressed because the rens look alike had a new haircut that makes him a little bit different from rens, but the way he act and his body still is a resemblance of RENS. anyway, i got a new crush i still dont know his name but he's an Engineering Student also. He once talked to me and told jokes:p I cant keep him out of my mind:p He's Cute and Genius:p So much for that, i want to hug Rens kanina when i saw him sa my IT dept:p Medyo napansin ko na may pilay siya at may black-eye. I dont know what happened to him:p But i really missed the foolishness memories of Rens that would always make him warfreak:p Im not saying that Rens the second was but i just missed Rens on how he react with his enemies:p woa:p I missed the Boiledeggs barkada so much:p But I super missed RENS:p
I got a new song from EYES SET TO KILL:P
here it is:p
Reach--
Hush, don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for.
It hurts to reach you when I’m down,
Don’t speak again; I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)
So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
As you are moving forward
I feel as if I can't catch up
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)
I’m stuck here at the bottom
You’re too high up to come back down
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)
So hold your breath and spare me
(The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience)
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
(I try to reach you but I fall)
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)
I got a new song from EYES SET TO KILL:P
here it is:p
Reach--
Hush, don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for.
It hurts to reach you when I’m down,
Don’t speak again; I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)
So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
As you are moving forward
I feel as if I can't catch up
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)
I’m stuck here at the bottom
You’re too high up to come back down
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)
So hold your breath and spare me
(The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience)
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
(I try to reach you but I fall)
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wake Up. I Love this Song:p Reminds Me of a Friend Far Away:p
Yes, Finally im home, school really makes me so stressed! i really had hard time finding my rooms and subjects. so hard to be an IRREGULAR STUDENT. wee, but im loving BS CIVIL ENGINEERING much:p i was really happy and there's a KILIG FACTOR when RLM smiled at me. What a Day! I never saw RENS(resemblace of Rens) this day. That was a bit lonely, but im pretty sure i could see him tomorrow. Honestly, I've missed him. Here's a song i really love:p I know this since before but this was the time when i fully appreciated it:p Elder Paco really loves this song from Coheed And Cambria:p
Wake Up
I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up
I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever
I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Wh-Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up.
Wake Up
I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up
I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever
I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you
So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up
The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Wh-Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Half- Crazy:p Wishing for a FLASHBACK:p
How i wish, things will be back on what they are:p
i just missed them a lot:p
High School Craze:p
I cant stay any longer being just like this:p
my life was a riddle already.
I cant understand myself and either way i dint know what i really feel.
i know i was supposed to be happy with my life, but i cant find any reason to be.
I never had any source of happiness except for my lifetime barkadas ofcourse.
woa, since the time that i had saw him as a resemblance of my late bestfriend Rens, i cant get him off of my mind:p
i really wanted to be friends with him. But i think that would be impossible.
I may be weird but i am very eager to know such details as what was his name? From where he is? and so much more. The first time i saw him, his id lace was UNIVERSITY OF LASALLETE. Maybe, he had just transferred. Well, he really look like Rens in many aspect.
oh my:p my eyes are already upset for the things which happens always. I Miss Him!
Got to say goodbye first.
Tomorrow is Father's Day.
So, Happy Father's Day to all DADS! especially my DAD.
Well, I missed L****, i usually call him DADDY:p
just crossed on my mind:p
I heard some news about him yesterday, he's getting close to the church again. well i hope he'll stay forever there:p
and i really hope that his desire to go on a mission will be rejuvenated:p
Toodles! :p
i just missed them a lot:p
High School Craze:p
I cant stay any longer being just like this:p
my life was a riddle already.
I cant understand myself and either way i dint know what i really feel.
i know i was supposed to be happy with my life, but i cant find any reason to be.
I never had any source of happiness except for my lifetime barkadas ofcourse.
woa, since the time that i had saw him as a resemblance of my late bestfriend Rens, i cant get him off of my mind:p
i really wanted to be friends with him. But i think that would be impossible.
I may be weird but i am very eager to know such details as what was his name? From where he is? and so much more. The first time i saw him, his id lace was UNIVERSITY OF LASALLETE. Maybe, he had just transferred. Well, he really look like Rens in many aspect.
oh my:p my eyes are already upset for the things which happens always. I Miss Him!
Got to say goodbye first.
Tomorrow is Father's Day.
So, Happy Father's Day to all DADS! especially my DAD.
Well, I missed L****, i usually call him DADDY:p
just crossed on my mind:p
I heard some news about him yesterday, he's getting close to the church again. well i hope he'll stay forever there:p
and i really hope that his desire to go on a mission will be rejuvenated:p
Toodles! :p
Thursday, June 17, 2010
si RENS sa katauhan ng iba:p
OMG! ~~ i got shock when i saw him as he walk through their room, he's about 6 feet tall, emo hair, his handkerchief on his hands blocking the heat of the sun and a handbag hanging on his shoulder. I saw a man who looks like my BESTFRIEND. when he passed by, i dont know what's in my mind but i know for sure the last word that i uttered was his name. I was out of my mind when his name came out from my mouth. It seemed to be he's back again. He was reincarnated. I dont know what i really feel, but i'm really happy that i met this man eventhough i dont know his name, i know within myself i want him to be my bestfriend too, as RENS was. It sounds weird but when im staring at him, all i could remember is RENS was really like him. His thoughts, his lifestyle, the things he wants, the way he smile, his looks, even his gestures he's almost the same as RENS! My heart dwindles in happiness whenever i saw him, i got speechless and nervous. LAhat ng gusto nya, parang si RENS talaga! Asusual DOTA padin yung talagang nagconnect sa kanila at ang emo nyang buhok. :p Oh My! What a Feeling! Grabe talaga:p Gusto ko siyang maging FRIEND! dahil sa kanya nabuhay ulet yung feeling ko na magiging masaya parin ako.
JUNE 15, 2010 approximately 4:00 in the afternoon that was the time when i saw another RENS in my life:p
I missed him MUCH:p
Wherever you are, i know you are happy:p
BORDX, you'll always be my bestfriend:p
JUNE 15, 2010 approximately 4:00 in the afternoon that was the time when i saw another RENS in my life:p
I missed him MUCH:p
Wherever you are, i know you are happy:p
BORDX, you'll always be my bestfriend:p
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Maria Hannah Gracey Soriano Mesde:p This Is Me:p
Summertime of April, on the 19th day year 1992, I was born. I was a young baby girl and a God’s chosen gift to my parents. I was named Hannah Grace Soriano Mesde. I grew up being a Daddy’s Girl or in other words daddy’s spoiled Bratt. Ive been existing for almost 17 years since then. I was loved and cared the way I wanted to be.
During my childhood days, im an outdoor gal. I used to go anywhere, whatever happens I would just walk and walk and walk until I got satisfied of where I am. On the other side, I finished my preparatory years at Mother Montessori School, Baptista Village Elementary School from grades 3,4 and 6. I took my high school years and had finally graduated at Infant Jesus Montessori School. My first year in college I took bachelor of arts in MassCommunication but unfortunately I was not satisfied and tried to shift on Accountancy. No such luck so for now im taking bachelor of arts in Public administration.
Back to basic, I consider my self as a different girl, with regards to my uniqueness, my perspective in life, the way I want to live, and even how I face the challenges and adversaries in my life. I have lots of friends. I used to be a jolly one. I don’t want others to see me weak, humiliated and even to see me lonely. Despite of having tons of friends I am a loner inside. I just want to make myself find life in a better way. I look for the finer side when im in public, but I cry privately and would always mock myself alone. But anyway, I would always remain a hannah and I had actually left a mark on others life. I used to be their life’s clown. The word that would always mark on my heart and mind is the word “promises”. I believe that promises would always come into reality. Maybe because I grew up getting all I want and having what my parents had promised. Also I want to be judged on a fair way. No strings attached and no bias. I think women should be judged by their brains not by their builts, that’s one of my life’s word of wisdom. Even at agony and joy I would always remain the real hannah. Even at my Damsel in distress status or at my pixietale story nothing will change. Its for good and I don’t want to change my perspective just to impress somebody. Nonetheless, Im not a perfect creature so I don’t need to please everybody, I want to live by my own, to act independently. They can say anything they want to say. My words are “I Don’t Care”. I have my own perspective in life. Elsewhere, whatever. First and foremost, I hate having impersonators, copy-cats and even alike. I really want to be different. Absurd but I could prove that I am really a different one. Im too blunt and its easy for me to outburst in anger and become the maldita-type that you would never expect. Its better for me to become a bitterwoman on that particular time than to be a forever-witch.
I grew up in the church. I love being at church and most definitely I love the church. I learned, gained knowledge and wisdom from the church. At my young age my sense of responsibility was broaden. I loved to see other people laughing and laughing even until their last giggle because of me. I am not satisfied being just a second choice. Yes, I am selfish and its my weakness. I don’t want to be compared to others especially to my siblings. I hate the phrase “ako nalang”, what I mean is that I don’t want to volunteer myself. I had a low self-esteem and self-confidence. I want others to plead, and would always make me realize that I could do it. If they would not do that then, I wont believe that I could do it. I don’t just believe on my own words I need others word’s to make me feel comfortable of doing something great. Second, the phrase “youre almost alike with-“ I don’t want to be compared. Its getting steep. A place in time everything would be preserve on my mind. Its very easy for me to remember everthing.
I am fond of reading books. I love classical novels and essays. Francis Bacon, Steven Adleison, Hannah More, William Shakespeare and many more. I love the way they express their thoughts. I also love writing poems, composing songs, publishing articles, prose and narratives stories on my blog. I am also my friend’s writer. I love to renarrate their stories by means of writing them in a very informal way that they will laugh and laugh and they would remember that only hannah could do that. I write whenever I am happy, when im frustrated and when things don’t go on what I want them to be, I write when im down and have noone to talk with, I write just to ease boredom and I would always write when I feel like I am inspired for a new brand day for Love. Aside from ballpen and paper I also make my fingers busy plucking and strumming the guitar strings. I also sing but I would never loved to dance. Im not a Terpsichorean. Its my weakness. But I love Calliope, erato and Euterpe. I love History, especially world history. Greeks and Romans and the worlds differerent news. I could speak a little of Swedish, Spanish and Japanese and ofcourse English and my vernacular, Tagalog. The most simple thing that I could do and my very own forte is to talk. I would always talk and talk and talk. Its better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring. That’s the only thing that I could make myself busy. I love to look back to my past and reminisce everything that happened.
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