gRaduate na tayuh!-MontEssOrian akO!

gRaduate na tayuh!-MontEssOrian akO!

School Escapades:p

I really had a great day today:p Lots of surprises had welcomed me into a new world of fantasy:p Since yesterday i was really happy although i got a little depressed because the rens look alike had a new haircut that makes him a little bit different from rens, but the way he act and his body still is a resemblance of RENS. anyway, i got a new crush i still dont know his name but he's an Engineering Student also. He once talked to me and told jokes:p I cant keep him out of my mind:p He's Cute and Genius:p So much for that, i want to hug Rens kanina when i saw him sa my IT dept:p Medyo napansin ko na may pilay siya at may black-eye. I dont know what happened to him:p But i really missed the foolishness memories of Rens that would always make him warfreak:p Im not saying that Rens the second was but i just missed Rens on how he react with his enemies:p woa:p I missed the Boiledeggs barkada so much:p But I super missed RENS:p

I got a new song from EYES SET TO KILL:P
here it is:p



Reach--
Hush, don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for.
It hurts to reach you when I’m down,
Don’t speak again; I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down

My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
(Feeding me till I’m choking)
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)
(Ringing, my ears are bleeding)

So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)

Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down

As you are moving forward
I feel as if I can't catch up
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)
I’m stuck here at the bottom
You’re too high up to come back down
(Trying so hard to reach you)
(Trying so hard to reach you)


So hold your breath and spare me
(The pointless conversation, I’m running out of patience)
Don’t blame me for trying to (reach)

Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m down
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m down

Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it
(I try to reach you but I fall)

Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it

Silence your harsh words my dear
My ears are ringing of this
I can't stop thinking of it

Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)
Don’t speak again; I’m still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I’m (down)

Wake Up. I Love this Song:p Reminds Me of a Friend Far Away:p

Yes, Finally im home, school really makes me so stressed! i really had hard time finding my rooms and subjects. so hard to be an IRREGULAR STUDENT. wee, but im loving BS CIVIL ENGINEERING much:p i was really happy and there's a KILIG FACTOR when RLM smiled at me. What a Day! I never saw RENS(resemblace of Rens) this day. That was a bit lonely, but im pretty sure i could see him tomorrow. Honestly, I've missed him. Here's a song i really love:p I know this since before but this was the time when i fully appreciated it:p Elder Paco really loves this song from Coheed And Cambria:p


Wake Up

I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window

I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever

I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Wh-Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up.

Half- Crazy:p Wishing for a FLASHBACK:p

How i wish, things will be back on what they are:p
i just missed them a lot:p
High School Craze:p
I cant stay any longer being just like this:p
my life was a riddle already.
I cant understand myself and either way i dint know what i really feel.
i know i was supposed to be happy with my life, but i cant find any reason to be.
I never had any source of happiness except for my lifetime barkadas ofcourse.
woa, since the time that i had saw him as a resemblance of my late bestfriend Rens, i cant get him off of my mind:p
i really wanted to be friends with him. But i think that would be impossible.
I may be weird but i am very eager to know such details as what was his name? From where he is? and so much more. The first time i saw him, his id lace was UNIVERSITY OF LASALLETE. Maybe, he had just transferred. Well, he really look like Rens in many aspect.

oh my:p my eyes are already upset for the things which happens always. I Miss Him!
Got to say goodbye first.
Tomorrow is Father's Day.
So, Happy Father's Day to all DADS! especially my DAD.
Well, I missed L****, i usually call him DADDY:p
just crossed on my mind:p
I heard some news about him yesterday, he's getting close to the church again. well i hope he'll stay forever there:p
and i really hope that his desire to go on a mission will be rejuvenated:p

Toodles! :p

si RENS sa katauhan ng iba:p

OMG! ~~ i got shock when i saw him as he walk through their room, he's about 6 feet tall, emo hair, his handkerchief on his hands blocking the heat of the sun and a handbag hanging on his shoulder. I saw a man who looks like my BESTFRIEND. when he passed by, i dont know what's in my mind but i know for sure the last word that i uttered was his name. I was out of my mind when his name came out from my mouth. It seemed to be he's back again. He was reincarnated. I dont know what i really feel, but i'm really happy that i met this man eventhough i dont know his name, i know within myself i want him to be my bestfriend too, as RENS was. It sounds weird but when im staring at him, all i could remember is RENS was really like him. His thoughts, his lifestyle, the things he wants, the way he smile, his looks, even his gestures he's almost the same as RENS! My heart dwindles in happiness whenever i saw him, i got speechless and nervous. LAhat ng gusto nya, parang si RENS talaga! Asusual DOTA padin yung talagang nagconnect sa kanila at ang emo nyang buhok. :p Oh My! What a Feeling! Grabe talaga:p Gusto ko siyang maging FRIEND! dahil sa kanya nabuhay ulet yung feeling ko na magiging masaya parin ako.

JUNE 15, 2010 approximately 4:00 in the afternoon that was the time when i saw another RENS in my life:p

I missed him MUCH:p
Wherever you are, i know you are happy:p
BORDX, you'll always be my bestfriend:p

Maria Hannah Gracey Soriano Mesde:p This Is Me:p

Summertime of April, on the 19^th day year 1992, I was born. I was a young baby girl and a God’s chosen gift to my parents. I was named Hannah Grace Soriano Mesde. I grew up being a Daddy’s Girl or in other words daddy’s spoiled Bratt. Ive been existing for almost 17 years since then. I was loved and cared the way I wanted to be.

During my childhood days, im an outdoor gal. I used to go anywhere, whatever happens I would just walk and walk and walk until I got satisfied of where I am. On the other side, I finished my preparatory years at Mother Montessori School, Baptista Village Elementary School from grades 3,4 and 6. I took my high school years and had finally graduated at Infant Jesus Montessori School. My first year in college I took bachelor of arts in MassCommunication but unfortunately I was not satisfied and tried to shift on Accountancy. No such luck so for now im taking bachelor of arts in Public administration.

Back to basic, I consider my self as a different girl, with regards to my uniqueness, my perspective in life, the way I want to live, and even how I face the challenges and adversaries in my life. I have lots of friends. I used to be a jolly one. I don’t want others to see me weak, humiliated and even to see me lonely. Despite of having tons of friends I am a loner inside. I just want to make myself find life in a better way. I look for the finer side when im in public, but I cry privately and would always mock myself alone. But anyway, I would always remain a hannah and I had actually left a mark on others life. I used to be their life’s clown. The word that would always mark on my heart and mind is the word “promises”. I believe that promises would always come into reality. Maybe because I grew up getting all I want and having what my parents had promised. Also I want to be judged on a fair way. No strings attached and no bias. I think women should be judged by their brains not by their builts, that’s one of my life’s word of wisdom. Even at agony and joy I would always remain the real hannah. Even at my Damsel in distress status or at my pixietale story nothing will change. Its for good and I don’t want to change my perspective just to impress somebody. Nonetheless, Im not a perfect creature so I don’t need to please everybody, I want to live by my own, to act independently. They can say anything they want to say. My words are “I Don’t Care”. I have my own perspective in life. Elsewhere, whatever. First and foremost, I hate having impersonators, copy-cats and even alike. I really want to be different. Absurd but I could prove that I am really a different one. Im too blunt and its easy for me to outburst in anger and become the maldita-type that you would never expect. Its better for me to become a bitterwoman on that particular time than to be a forever-witch.

I grew up in the church. I love being at church and most definitely I love the church. I learned, gained knowledge and wisdom from the church. At my young age my sense of responsibility was broaden. I loved to see other people laughing and laughing even until their last giggle because of me. I am not satisfied being just a second choice. Yes, I am selfish and its my weakness. I don’t want to be compared to others especially to my siblings. I hate the phrase “ako nalang”, what I mean is that I don’t want to volunteer myself. I had a low self-esteem and self-confidence. I want others to plead, and would always make me realize that I could do it. If they would not do that then, I wont believe that I could do it. I don’t just believe on my own words I need others word’s to make me feel comfortable of doing something great. Second, the phrase “youre almost alike with-“ I don’t want to be compared. Its getting steep. A place in time everything would be preserve on my mind. Its very easy for me to remember everthing.

I am fond of reading books. I love classical novels and essays. Francis Bacon, Steven Adleison, Hannah More, William Shakespeare and many more. I love the way they express their thoughts. I also love writing poems, composing songs, publishing articles, prose and narratives stories on my blog. I am also my friend’s writer. I love to renarrate their stories by means of writing them in a very informal way that they will laugh and laugh and they would remember that only hannah could do that. I write whenever I am happy, when im frustrated and when things don’t go on what I want them to be, I write when im down and have noone to talk with, I write just to ease boredom and I would always write when I feel like I am inspired for a new brand day for Love. Aside from ballpen and paper I also make my fingers busy plucking and strumming the guitar strings. I also sing but I would never loved to dance. Im not a Terpsichorean. Its my weakness. But I love Calliope, erato and Euterpe. I love History, especially world history. Greeks and Romans and the worlds differerent news. I could speak a little of Swedish, Spanish and Japanese and ofcourse English and my vernacular, Tagalog. The most simple thing that I could do and my very own forte is to talk. I would always talk and talk and talk. Its better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring. That’s the only thing that I could make myself busy. I love to look back to my past and reminisce everything that happened.

After evaluating who really I am I still want to prove something more. My journey is not yet on its end. Few years from now I want to see myself a Certified Public Accountant, A Historian, A Writer and an Author, A Guitarist of my ideal band, and lastly a most remembered Mother to my family.

My Younger Years. :p

Try to look at my pictures:p

those were the times when i feel im HAppily Contented:p

Newly Edited:] Parang nawala ang powers ko se editing. haha:]

Madame pa sa Facebook:]] Go there:]]]

kulet:]

Artist Vs Poet - Gateway

I Just Love this Photo:]

Until This Day With You:]

My Song For YOU:]

On The Edge
-HannahGraceySorianoMesde


Life is not fine. Life is the pits.
Do you still love me as you did?
The night, The stars sang to the ocean
and my heart swelled like the tide
I cant do anything right
Dont get me wrong.

Chorus:
I love being back together with you.
Its just that our relationship takes a lot
more work now than it used to.
Its amazing how much I think about you
When were apart. I was a million miles away.

I guess my distraction proves
that i made the right choice.
I've never been so madly inlove.
And i cant get enough of it.
Why dont i get a turn?
It would sure make life simplier.

Chorus:
I love being back together with you.
Its just that our relationship takes a lot
more work now than it used to.
Its amazing how much I think about you
When were apart. I was a million miles away.

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life.
Something horrible has happened.
Something even better has happened too.
I feel so terrible about you I had to admit it, but i still love you.
And it tears me apart to see myself lonely.

Chorus:
I love being back together with you.
Its just that our relationship takes a lot
more work now than it used to.
Its amazing how much I think about you
When were apart. I was a million miles away.

Even after all these years.
I know there’s a special person out there for you.
Sometimes I even wish it could be ME:[


ginawa ko yan:]
para sayu talaga yan!:]

Goodbye MarkRens:] The hardest thing to do:[

Our Foundation Day:]




This is our picture weeks before graduation. This is our last Picture before we graduate.


This is our Class photo. Before our Retreat:] Im missing them . especially him:[




Since Rens had just passed away few weeks ago. Im going to pay him some tribute:]
I really cant believe that he's gone.
Some things abruptly come into my mind.
I can still remember how everything started.
When i saw him when he first enter INFANT JESUS MONTESSORI SCHOOL.
Third year:] He's a fidelitinian.
As time goes by, i come to know him better. especially when we aere in our 4th year in high school. we were both INTEG:] When he called me 'MECHADO' because puy keeps on calling me mechado burger. Everytime we were at the canteen. When he have to cheat at my own quizzes and exams:] im doing his projects for his grade's sake. The thing i wont forget was when he's teaching me songs:[ especially EMO'ness! haha.i will miss it:] i will miss him:] When he shares his problem to me. When he reminds me to be good and just go on with with life even though im so down.
these are just some of the things i would never ever forget.
the last thing he ask me was his song which i was not able to give,
but by my next entry. i will.

i will miss rens.
i will miss bordx:]



I Love You Goodbye – Nina Music Code

Eto ung last pics na nakita kita;]]














Here's a song for him:[

I Love You Goodbye

Wish i could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish i could say to you

That i’ll always stay with you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that’s something i can’t do

Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can find some way to understand i’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do
You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that i could never be
Who’ll give you something better
Than the love you’ll find with me
Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh i don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But i’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

i had looked back:]]

you are the one:]]
just want to put something here.
its been a month already since i have my last entry.
i have lots of stories to tell. but i'm running out of time.
so, maybe ill just let it to be continued next time.
i am really happy:]] but not at home. definitely, there's something 'no good' there..
school is so good to me:]] i have more time with my 'college friends' than with non-sense tambay anywhere:]] i think it would definitely be fine:]] FOR ME. and for US! well, since im not yet that so busy, here's some of my happy moments the past few days.
JAja had celebrated her 18th birthday already. and guess who i have seen at the party? JAWI! oww! I Dont know whats the appropriate reaction for that scenario, but i had really realized that he still have place here: <3. get it? almost the whole barkada was there except for ABi and NOna. ofcourse, they were not able to be here. they have classes. remember! Denise, Irene, Faye, Joan, Bryan, PAtrick, Jherrix were all there. and we have lots of serenading kwentuhans and asarans. aside from being 'emo-ahead' i have to make myself busy chatting with my high school batchmates. they were all teasing me because nothing has changed. i havent loose weight, either, i gained a lot.. woa! aside from taking pictures! we talked and talked about our past years at montessori. well, we were all begging for a 'rewind'. ifever it could be:]] haha! that would be a lot happier.

ok.. i think i have to end it for a while. and ill have it to be continued some other time, including our photos:]]

ADIEU!

Janelle's 18th Birthday:]